Cymbalta Diary - Day 78

This entry has been long overdue but I have reasons for not posting sooner.  I was too bummed to officially admit that I saw no improvements in pain levels with Cymbalta.  And I've had multiple migraines since tapering off of Cymbalta so staring at this white-background to type didn't seem all that appealing.

For whatever reason I've become uberbitch the past couple weeks - snapping at my husband and my dogs.  I've been very easily irritated and it's ******* ME OFF (haha).  I am getting over a cold, the weather's been rainy, I'm ovulating, and I'm once again trying to eat less sugar/caffeine/junk food.  Triggers, triggers, triggers, oh my.

I hope the mood and migraines go back to normal once the Cymbalta is fully out of my system.  I really don't see the reason to be on medication forever when I saw no improvement.  My husband said he liked my mood better when I was on it, but honestly I feel I was just so happy I finally found a medication that didn't make me feel worse...plus the fact I was so hopefu it put me in an overall better mood.  It seems once I heard my doctor say studies show no benefit to increasing the dose passed 60mg I just felt deflated/sad/angry. 

The good news is now I can go back to trying to have a baby.  I do worry about it mornings like today though - where I woke up with an icepick migraine so bad I could feel the exit wound.  It felt like a hand was scraping to get out the back of my head.  My husband woke up feeling crappy as well, so I'll chalk this one up to funky weather.  The part that worries me is can I safely grab for an Axert if I'm trying to get pregnant?

My Neuro says there are no studies proving it's safe to be on abortives during pregnancy.  But he added that narcotics are okay, but holy crap I don't want to be on narcotics.  So my biggest fear is how I'm going to make it through the first month of pregnancy sans medication    I say the first month because I hear the rest should be migraine-free!