Here you are again,
greeting me
with the intensity
of a hot unrelenting force-field

Throw me off balance,
Deprive me of my fun
Abduct me from my desires...

Wait.

Am I a victim?
Just because
you show up,
like a familiar
but unwelcome
friend?

Unannounced?

Or did I not listen?
Not a friend --
I don't embrace you

Until

You have me

Pinned to the floor
in the dark,
curled in a ball
Doubting sanity and

Existence.

Is that why you keep coming?

Ebbs and flows
have taught me much
about your patterns and ways.

Yet I still long,
even if naively,
to be free
of You.

How quickly I forget
That we are married;
Soul mates...
And I don't shed
part of myself so easily