Well my adventure started out about 7 years ago. Most of the time adventures are something fun , that you can prepare for and you anticipate.  Well not this one. I have been having trouble with my legs for years every since I was a little girl.  I was not one to complain. I'm one of those get in there and get it done kind of people. I have never been one to complain. I knew something wasn't right when I was in the 7th grade and just fainted dead away when I was going down the stairs. My mother took me to the doctor and of course I had no symptoms doctor just sent me home and I felt like the biggest idiot. I didn't have any other"symptoms for a long time. I would get weak and my back would hurt. Of course everybody would just say that I didn't want to work or something that would hurt my feelings and make me feel bad. If they knew me at all they wouldn't have said that.  I was working 2 jobs and left my baby at home where she was being sexually molested and physically and verbally abused. My daughter is 18 now but the hurt doesn't go away. I failed my baby she flunked the 7th grade because of me and my illness.  I know that I have plenty of company and that I am not the only one that have gone throught some changes behind MS.  When I first began to accept the fact that I have MS, I didn't want help from anyone.  I tried to be a mother to my child. My mother and my brother verbally and physically abused my daughter`when I was in the hospital.  She would call me and tell me but it was nothing I could do for her.  I could not even help myself,I really let her down.  I have tried to make it up to her in so many ways but I simply cannot .  I think she has forgiven me but it's hard for me to forgive myself.  MS has really interupted my life.  I have gone blind and can no longer stand for hardly any period of time.  I have been in colelge for the past several years and cannot seem to pass.  Sometimes my mind goes sometimes I cannot remember anything.  Because of my health issues my work history was cut short.  I retired quicker than I wanted to and my daughter has suffered.  It's not fair it's just not fair. I wanted this to be light and airy but when I started reminiscin about what the past few years have been like, I couldn't find anything.  I wish I could give my daughter the simple things that she has missed.   There have been a lot of people that have been real goodto me.  One lady that I went to school with got me a riding chair, it was old but it helped me.  When arthritis kept me from using my hands or arms it really came in handy.  At first I couldn't get any help but I just kept on.  We didn't have anywhere to live and not only did my health get bad but my life in general did too.  I was at a really low point in my life I was thinking about commiting a homocide and a suicide.  God is who has brought me through.  My faith in the Almighty is what has sustained me.  God never puts more on us than we can bear.  I have learned that and also that He is with me and walking besides me and carrying me.  When things get really bad I remember the poem "Foot prints in the Sand".  I have to lean on Him because there is no one else that can carry me or would want to.  I have come a long way from where I was . I have asked for and received prayer.  I am just going to hold on now.