After 15 years..Still Working on Acceptance

Its interesting that Lisa posted on Depression today.  I have been struggling with depression for the last couple of months.  Its been a struggle probably because I will not consider meds.  I just don't want to take another pill.  So I've been sleeping on it.  As you might imagine I've been sleeping a lot.  Well I'm awake today and focusing on two things.  First, this is a day the Lord has made; rise and be glad in it.  I am grateful to be alive.  Second, as my friend recently said, I must accept this condition MS and all of the consequences it brings.  It doesn't mean that my life is over but it has changed.  I must learn to work/live within the new reality.  I am determined to live happily in this world--just as I am.  This is very difficult for me to say  because I want to walk without assistance.  I want to feel confident in nagivating  my world.   I don't like having to wait on getting help; worrying about how accessible my surroundings will be or how accepting others will be about my physical challenges.  So what can I say--live IS what it IS.  It's not about what I like.  Maybe I'm a whinner, crying about things over which I do not have control.  Even after 15 years of MS, it doesn't get any easier.  Can I handle it?  We'll see.