I thank God every day for the blessings in my life. I need no reminders to be happy. All I have to do is look around me and see my beautiful family. It's just that once in a while I get overwhelmed with thoughts and need to vent them. Once in a great while I think about what I could've done, or what I could be doing. I call these my "down days". Which are far and few between. I remind myself that there will always be somebody worse off than me. It would be nice just to get a break from this disease. I would settle for one minute. Because, as I'm sure you know, it's there when you wake up and it's there when you go to sleep, it's always there. People see it, but they don't feel it.   PS. Donna, thank you for your e-mail. I tried to e-mail you back, but somehow I kept screwing it up.