i was diagnois in 12/07, since then i been spiraling down. i keep telling myself, ican, i will,i must. i believe i'm gone walk again, i have to believe or i'll give up.  i'm gone start therapy soon. i hoping for great improvement. i ask myself why me, why now. i'll be 50 in year, is'nt that when life begins?  for some of us. until then i want to know how to deal with it how to accept it. i don't want to be a burden to my children or no one else. i don't go  no where except to the doctor and my neighborhood walmart. well i do know this i did'nt get this because i did something so wrong that  God had to punish me now. i have my good and bad days. on my days i just cry and wish f or death. please give me some suggestions on what to eat or take to increase my health.