About 9 years ago I developed a progressive blurring of vision in my left eye which was eventually diagnosed as optic neuritis. I had an abnormal VFT and VEP, as well as an MRI with 6 or 7 abnormal small lesions. After seeing a neuro-ophthalmologist and an MS specialist, the conclusion was abnormal MRI consistent with MS, but no bell ringing dx. That was fine with me, because I was otherwise feeling fine, and the vision gradually came back to normal. I just kind of never went back for followup--figured there were other people who were really sick who needed the time with this very busy neurologist. About 2 years later, I was convinced to have another MRI by my GP. This one still showed the abnormal lesions, but now a new larger streak behind the frontal lobe, considered atypical. So, since then I have been seeing a neurologist with regular MRI's. Nothing has changed, and I have been able to charm my neurologist into not hanging a diagnosis on me, though he is frustrated with me because I have declined getting a spinal tap or taking any immunomodulators. He tells me I likely have a benign form of MS; I choose to not submit to that diagnosis. I haven't had an MRI for 2 years now, because he says there's no sense in getting one if I'm not going to do any thing about it. The last few months my vision is less crisp in that left eye again, though my prescription hasn't changed. My eye doc was concerned about the "look" of my optic nerve, and I had another VFT which was fine. I'm having a bit of color desaturation especially when I exercise or when I'm warm, similar to the first episode but not nearly as pronounced. My question is, am I being foolish not getting another MRI? I'm a nurse, and I micro analyze everything---my neurologist and I disagree philosophically, but he says my arguments are logical. He has left it up to me to decide when I want another scan. I take fish oil caps with D and am otherwise feeling well. Just a few other little foibles...chronic numbness and burning in my right foot; I also was diagnosed with an indolent kind of lymphoma but have needed no treatment. I think of myself as a healthy person. What do you think?






Thanks, Vicki.
I suppose I am the antithesis of a hypochondriac :-) I'm always looking for a doctor who will tell me there's nothing wrong and/or takes an extrememly conservative approach!! I convinced my pulmonologist to baby the abnormal lesions in my lungs along for 3 years before a positive PET scan necessitated the surgery that diagnosed my (thankfully) wimpy kind of lymphoma. Even now I keep negotiating with my oncologist to minimize the number of CT scans I get to follow up on that.
My conversations with my neurologist go kind of like this: me--why would I want to inject my body with a substance that has clearly identified side effects when I feel perfectly well? him--it's because you ARE doing so well that you should treat this aggressively! me--yeah, if I'd started on treatment 9 years ago, you all would have said, see how good it's working! him--(rolls his eyes and sighs)
I'm in my mid 50's, and am an incurable optimist. My plan is to remain healthy and active, but I have a friend who delights in telling me I'm in avoidance and denial.
Every once in awhile, though, I wonder if I'm being irresponsible by not being more proactive with this. The thing is, I have friends who are totaly disabled with MS, yet I know I could also live out the rest of my days with no progression at all. (Plus, I truly don't know if I actually have MS---lesions have always been described as 'atypical'. My official diagnosis is "Abnormal MRI".) I have hypothyroidism as well, so I keep trying to find some kind of autoimmune link to all of these foibles. Bottom line is, I do feel well, stay busy, eat in a very healthy way, keep researching stuff, and drive my docs crazy. Good thing they like me, or I'd probably be black listed!
This recurrence of the slight vision blurriness and color desaturation is what has me doubting my wisdom. I'm going to blow my deductible away this summer with another CT scan; why not get the MRI and see if there's anything new-----but then even if there's mild changes I doubt I'd do anything about it, so what's the point? I don't think having to wait for treatment would be a problem. I have great (howbeit very expensive) insurance. Just not sure if "ignorance is bliss" is the best tactic! So now you see why I'm a problem child! :-)