I really appreciate your concern, Adrian! I may be an athiest now, but I firmly believe in most of the "Christian" priciples. They just make sense to me. The idea of an omniscient, omnipresent, all-loving being does not make sense to me. Being a kind, accepting, forgiving, loving person and having peace of mind is NOT exclusive in the belief of GOD! I do not lie, cheat, nor steal. I am honestly concerned about ppl in general & help whenever I can. I do my best to live by the golden rule. The insinuation that these characteristics are only in those who believe in God is quite insulting, but I know you didn't mean it to be, so I'm not upset about it. I feel I have as much control as I can have now. When 1st diagnosed, I crawled into a bottle for about a yr, in deep depression. I have since started excersising & stretching. I get out of bed every day that I can & do as much as I can, like running errands, cleaning house, cooking for my husband, etc. As I said before, I truly do appreciate your concern! I can see the genuine love you have for ppl, as do I.   Thank you, Dani