My wife is now 47, living with this MS for many years.Before, she was a very active person, running, smiling, having fun , travelling: she was living a normal life. At 33 years old she gave birth to our son, and her situation started to change rapidly. We knew she had that disease - she has been hospitalized 14 times before giving birth to our son( -who is now 14 years). She even breast feed the baby boy. Then , after a while, her health started to deteriorate rapidly, ( with all the most modern medicine I believe she has), nothing help.Day by day I watch her, watch her health deteriorating even further . I am watching her in the pain, she cant sleep, cant even pour a glass of water for herself. Everything she needs, some one has to do it for her, or I have to assist her in everything. She cant even take a pen to sign a document and that is some one with a Masters/postgraduate in Arts. In the last 3 years we have managed to get her to hospital just in time..!!!Then again, all brings an atmosphere in the house - not the best one. The boy never had a mum to pick him from school or to go to the parents meeting; not her fault! I have to do everything.Looking at some one screaming in pain is really painful - when you witness that day b day, yes, you do curse the whole world as you really don't know where the end is. It is even more painful for the kid. I cant accept this fact that believing in god will make things better, no, no !! I don't want to go into that . I just can't understand how much a human can or should suffer, for how many years can you watch a human/your wife suffer so much. You cant even go on a holiday as a family, as she refuses and cant . You cant even sit together in the evening for a talk - she just cant or has not got the strength to stay late.She is now 47 years, maybe a miracle will happen, things will get better. MS might not kill one, but I am witnessing how it is torturing some one day day, moment by moment and you are just helpless .