Not yet one year. It’s been 42 weeks or 294 days. Now there are 70 days, or 10 weeks, to go before it’s been one complete year documenting this journey. During this time, I’ve enjoyed doing this more than I expected I might.
In fact, I almost backed out when I fully realized that strangers and people I know IRL (in real life) might be reading such personal updates. Since I have this blog fed directly onto my Facebook page and Twitter, it is true that friends from high school and college, professional colleagues, blogging friends, and family have access to the information.
I know that the vast majority do not read, but the ones who do give me more support than I imagined was possible. Thank you. For being such a shy person up until my 30’s, I certainly have gotten loud and forward with everything that is going on in my life....and it has benefited me tremendously.
I have to be honest. I stopped keeping track of everything I eat sometime back in August. However, my iPhone still beeps at me each evening to remind me that I haven’t logged any meals that day. I do still use it to look up meal offerings at popular restaurants. Other than the temporary 5-pound spike which followed the conference in Philadelphia, things have been going well on the scale.
Eight months of documenting each calorie, each bit of carbohydrates, each gram of fat, all the protein. Learning how to read labels and estimate quantities. It has been a good “on the job” education which will guide the rest of my life.
I am no longer hiding my head in the sand. I am no longer avoiding mirrors. I am no longer stuffing down anger and sadness (well, most of the time anyways). I am recognizing how far I’ve come and how far I still have to go.
Last month there was a Harris Interactive/HealthDay report which revealed that “30 percent of people [polled] who are overweight think that they’re normal size.”
But what is “normal”? According to a dictionary definition, normal means conforming with, constituting a standard, or not abnormal. Normal means being approximately average or within certain limits.
According to the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention [as reported in the HealthDay article], 34% of adults aged 20 and older are obese, and 34% are overweight. That means that only 32% are of normal weight or are underweight. So being overweight seems to be the “average” or “norm” in our society.
As quoted by HealthDay: "I think too many people are unsure of what they should actually weigh," said Keri Gans, a registered dietician and spokeswoman for the American Dietetic Association. "For many, they have grown up in a culture were most people are overweight and that is the norm, or they have been surrounded by too many celebrities and fashion in the media and think very thin is the norm."
The above is somewhat true for me too. I’ve been aware of my weight over the years, but that hadn’t been enough to open my eyes. If you’d ask me why I decided to make this change now, this year, I’m not sure I could answer that.
So many people come to MyObesityConnection and ask about how they can lose weight (lots of weight) without money, without surgery, without support. Some want to find free surgery, some just want guidance. Perhaps just a little hope that there is a chance at succeeding in this enormous challenge.
But none of us can do it alone. If you are reading this and want to join me on this journey, please just leave a word in the comments section. Send a message. Create a sharepost. Reach out.
Perhaps that it the reason I started such a public journal. I don’t want to do this alone and I need the support of others. Know that it takes courage to take that first step. It’s hard to let go of the shame and anger which may be attached to the excess weight.
It is with the help of others and the forgiveness of ourselves that we can begin to heal. So that is the focus of my week. Forgive myself of whatever failings I may have. Being obese is not a character flaw. This we must all remember.
My Weight Loss Chart (Jan 2010 - Oct 2010)
October 17, 2010
Weight: 230.2 lbs
Blood Pressure: 118/74
October 24, 2010
Weight: 225.5 lbs
Blood Pressure: 116/78