It Keeps Getting Worse

I suffer from not only fibromyalgia, but also osteoarthritis in my spine, hands, knees; carpal tunnel syndrome; chrondomalacia; migraines; sleep apnea; narcolepsy; GERD; DDD; bulging discs; and am extremely hard of hearing.

I'm in constant pain and it is causing me lots of depression. I'm at the stage of my SSDI application where I'm waiting for an appointment to meet with judge.

I can't deal with this pain as easily as I used to. I have NO income so NO insurance. My husband is also going for SSDI (he was denied his first time and the hearing was teleconferenced) but this is his second time. We are living off our savings.

My new primary care doc did fill out the functionality form for my lawyer as well as my neuro. But my rheumy and pain doc refused to. I just hope their notes in my records are good enough to help.

On being denied the first try at SSDI, they told me that they acknowledge my disabilities but an employer can accommodate my disabilities so I can still work. Yeah, right. I've been job hunting since I was illegally fired in April.

My mind is going. I used to have a great memory... nearly photographic one. Not anymore. Migraines and fibro fog cut in and I can't think clearly. I can't physically do anything without pain. My hands hurt so much I can't hold anything for more than a few minutes before the pain sets in. And often, I will drop things because of the pain and numbness. I even have trouble holding a book to read because the pain kicks in.

I injured my knee in a fall at a work site and it is not getting better. I'm wondering if I need a workman's comp lawyer to sue for damages because although I follow my ortho and physical therapist's prescriptions, the knee hurts and it buckled under me the other day at the rehabilitation hospital where I do aqua aerobics and leg exercises.

My pain is coming at me from all directions. Fibro first, then arthritis, migraines, carpal tunnel, knee injury.

I hate to get out of bed. I've had depression episodes where I really wanted to die. The pain killers are not enough. I have too much to do and I can't do it.

Ten minutes of physical work causes my back to go into spasms. Then I break out in sweat and if I don't quit, my breathing becomes hard.

I've had lots of cortizone shots all over my back, in my finger and wrist, and in my shoulder but they last only a little while. The cold winter, wind, and bright winter sun hurt me so much.

I just can't work anymore. The pain is too debilitating. Pain killers don't always work. And my mind is not as sharp as it used to be. I fall asleep on the computer if I don't take my Adderall and my neuro has now decided that my primary care doc should prescribe it instead of him. But she won't because she is in another state. I'll run out soon and won't be able to function at all.

I don't know what my options are anymore.