im 17 and a senior in high school. i dont really like sports, but i play them for scholarships for college, i get good grades (ranked 3rd in the class) and have what appears to be the "prototypical american high school student". but none of this makes me happy. In fact, im constantly depressed and alone. i seem to intentionally drive people away from me and i dont know why. other things about me... i love music, texting (when people want to actually talk), driving around. and wearing my mask of happiness to avoid question