Information and opinions on health from Nephilim at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/197775/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/197775/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/197775/index http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/197775/143288/physchologist Fri, 26 Aug 2011 16:03:13 -0400 Nephilim It has been 4mnths since i shared anything here, and i have built up sadness since April. Im getting hopeless again about alot of things, and dislike myself all the time, and i cant seem to find a solution to feel better. My depression is starting to REALLY effect my life again, my relationships with people, my attendance at work, and what i think about myself.  I want to find help, but when i REALLY opened up to a therapist, she wanted me... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/197775/143288/physchologist http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/197775/137422/mental-abuse Wed, 27 Apr 2011 15:53:57 -0400 Nephilim Its been a couple months since i posted, and been out there living life and trying to cope. I do feel strongly that i have depression. I realize this more than ever, after analying my current life and past. I was bullied in elementary, kindergarten,middle school,  and highschool which had contributed to my low self esteem, anti socialness, weirdness! I like to be alone often! I have a habit to disapear months at a time, then show up again... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/197775/137422/mental-abuse http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/197775/126806/hopeless-home Fri, 17 Dec 2010 00:26:26 -0500 Nephilim I been working my butt off for the past two weeks. I been up and down and crazy with my emotions. One second im screaming at someone, the next im giggly and smiley. i cant seem to control my emotions at all. I feel very sad, due to the fact (lately) that i been with my boyfriend for 6years, and we have no apartment, no $, and that makes me so unhappy. I see my friends and his brother in relationships where the boyfriend tries SUPER hard to make... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/197775/126806/hopeless-home http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/197775/125991/scrambling Mon, 06 Dec 2010 15:05:19 -0500 Nephilim I recently wrote a post about feeling like im at a point in my life i dont wana be at, with bad spending habits that i do realize i commit because im bored, sad, or feeling giving. Lately i find myself trying to figure out ways to make $ bcuz of my bad spending habits. I started to think hard about what i can sell, what lotto games and scratch games i can play, what advantages i have to make $ (such as art, singing, modeling, somthing!) I... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/197775/125991/scrambling http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/197775/125491/faithless-bad Mon, 29 Nov 2010 15:58:14 -0500 Nephilim I have been feeling depressed about where i am in my life. I live with my boyfriend of 6yrs at his fathers house along with his 3bros. I feel like i have always been unable to be independent and save $ for a place of my own. This past month i tried my best to save $ but i have failed again. $ flies out the window with bills, food, andother things. I have done several budget sheets, i have takled this out with some friends, i have tried to live... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/197775/125491/faithless-bad http://www.healthcentral.com/chronic-pain/c/197775/123627/calcium Wed, 03 Nov 2010 13:19:10 -0400 Nephilim Hi there,   Lately i have been working out about 4x a week to try and slim down for a confidence boost. i Find myself having a hard time having good effective work out due to several things, such as Knee pain when i do squats, pain in back of knee area when i kneel and stretch legs straight behind me, when i run on tread mill i get very painful back aches, and  i have asthma and i can only run for about 30sec before i start getting... http://www.healthcentral.com/chronic-pain/c/197775/123627/calcium http://www.healthcentral.com/chronic-pain/c/197775/122580/nauseated Thu, 21 Oct 2010 11:34:52 -0400 Nephilim Today and last night before i went to bed i started feeling very sick. i needed to lay down to not feel terrible. Any motion made me feel very dizzy and nauseated. I am wondering if this because of caffeine?  I had 4 cups of coffee with a freind at George Webb with sugar and creamer. Do you think i feel this way because of my Caffeine intake last night?  This feeling is making me nervous because i feel like i will vomit at any moment!... http://www.healthcentral.com/chronic-pain/c/197775/122580/nauseated http://www.healthcentral.com/chronic-pain/c/197775/122142/worker-time Fri, 15 Oct 2010 15:54:39 -0400 Nephilim Since ive started working in my healthcare job, I been up and down with a co worker. One second we are okay the next she is complaining about me somehow. The first week i started here, she blamed me for a printer breaking down, and then complained about my sanitizer. i personally, LOVE using hand sanitizer, i like to stay healthy, clean, and its refreshing. So finally, again working in a healthcare facitily/business office,  my supervisors... http://www.healthcentral.com/chronic-pain/c/197775/122142/worker-time http://www.healthcentral.com/chronic-pain/c/197775/121277/constantly Mon, 04 Oct 2010 11:14:44 -0400 Nephilim THIS IS MY 3RD WEEK ON LEXAPRO, AND I AM YAWNING CONSTANTLY EVEN WHEN IM NOT TIRED! I READ THE SIDEFFECTS ON THIS WEBSITE AND IT STATES YAWNING IS ONE OF THEM. ITS STARTING TO ANNOY ME, WHEN IM RUNNING ON THE TREADMILL, EATING LUNCH, HAVING A CONVERSATION, I AM YAWNING.  IS IT IMPORTANT I SEE MY DOCTOR ABOUT THIS, OR WAS I TO EXPECT THIS SIDEFFECT?   http://www.healthcentral.com/chronic-pain/c/197775/121277/constantly http://www.healthcentral.com/chronic-pain/c/197775/120567/lexapro Fri, 24 Sep 2010 16:49:46 -0400 Nephilim Well i went to seen my doctor because i was panicing on  how my behavior has become so bad, and she suggested lexapro and seeing a phychiatrist. I did not tell her i attempted therapy, i was too embarrassed due to the fact that the therapist dismissed me.... So far, this is the 3rd day i been on lexapro and i find myself at the edge of my seat, feeling anxious, not wanting to sit still. I feel a bit tense, but on the positive side... http://www.healthcentral.com/chronic-pain/c/197775/120567/lexapro