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SMOMis Winnie
- Location: philadelphia, PA, United States
- Gender: Female
- Birthday: March 04, 1963
- Bio: 46 yr old singe mom with FM
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HEALTH INTERESTS:
Fibromyalgia, Back Pain, Sciatica, Chronic pain syndrome, depression/anxiety disorder, spinal stenosis and other spinal issues, cronic nausea and reflux (gerd), IBS, cronic UTI's, sjogren's syndromeDRUGS I AM TAKING:
oxycontin, oxycodone, amitriptylin, klonopin, cymbalta, prilosecABOUT ME:
I have been living with pain and sickness for what seems like forever, i don't even remember a time before that. I don't work anymore, i am on disability. I do have a job however, it's being a mother. I have spent the past ten years making my daughter's life as normal and the best it could be. I don't want her to think back when she is older and say my mom was always sick. My mother was sick when i was young and she died was was just 9 and all i remember was her being sick all the time. I can honestly say that i don't have very many "good momories" it's all the bad things that are my memories of childhood. I am hoping that by filling my daughter's life with fun and happy events she will not remeber so much of the bad and just the good. I do want her to say "i always had the greatest birthday parties; we always had the biggest pumkins in the world; our christmas decorations where so pretty, santa was always good to me. Even though money was and is always tight she plays soccer, softball has been in dance classses since she was 2 (she is now 15)tap, jazz & ballet on pointe now. I have always tought her that she can do anything, all she has to do is try. She is an honor student and has always been, she wants to be a doctor. She has said that for as long as i can remember and she is great in science and math. She has won many awards for community service and for writing. She is a teenager now and has just started high school. I was somehow, by the grace of God able to have her attend Catholic school from pre-K to 8th grade. I couldn't afford to do high school and it was the first time she ever told me that i let her down and that i broke my promise to her. She is in a very good charter school but she is unhappy, her friends all went on to the same catholic high school. she has changed so much in a short time, she was a different group of friends and i sometimes don't know who she is. I know this is supposed to be about me but mostly everything i did or who i was revolved around my daughter. I'm kind of lost now. My days used to be spent volentering at her school or at our Church. Any adult interaction i had was do to the parents of her friends and the different activities she was involved in or parent of her friends from her old school. Now she has no relationships with the kids who went on to Catholic school. We lived in a small community where everyone knew each other and we knew all the kids parents. I know this is crazy but if you don't go to Catholic school you are called "public" and you are sort of an outcast. So i have let her down and she is now finding a not so good group of kids (friends?). She is know never home and i feel like i have to watch her like a hawk. I have realized that i have no friends, not that i had any "good friends" before. I find myself with no one to talk to for several days at a time. All the friends i had before i got sick, have moved on with their own lives. When you are in pain and your world is so different then others there is realy nothing to talk about. I find myself just complaining and not having anyother interests leaves not much else to talk about. my family is tired of hearing the same old things not that they have ever been helpful or supportive. I made my daughter the person that i depended on so much and i just realized it now. Well, this all sounds very depressing i guess i just needed to vent. hopefully i will edit this "about me" with more happier things about me in the near future. I came looking for a place on the computer to find people who were more like me or who understood how living differently then most was all about. I am hoping to find some friends or at least some people to communicate with.PHOTOS:
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Living With It in Chronic Pain
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SMOM commented on Consuming to Control Pain: Chocolate and Red Wine
04/20/10
SMOM answered needs new Dr. to continue chronic pain treatment
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SMOM commented on Fibromyalgia Truths for Those Who Don't Believe
12/29/09
SMOM answered I need everyone's input, please
12/29/09
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