Information and opinions on health from bb4205 at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/406881/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/406881/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/406881/index http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/133556/bad-returning Mon, 07 Mar 2011 21:52:08 -0500 bb4205 After all this time of doing good my bad thoughts seem to be returning. I'm not depressed or suicidal but the shopping urges are back and I keep getting strong urges to harm myself. I'm not a cutter but I have cut myself once before. It was the day before my last suicide attempt. I wasn't trying to kill myself by cutting and I didn't do it to feel the pain. I just felt like it. I was manic. I didn't cut very deep but it did leave a scar which I... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/133556/bad-returning http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/126703/tired Wed, 15 Dec 2010 18:44:42 -0500 bb4205 I've been doing so good these last couple months. But this week I am so down and tired.On Monday I literally slept all day..woke up at 6pm but was still tired remainder of day. Today I slept til 3:30pm. I seem to be tired all the time. And today I was pretty depressed for no reason. I just dont feel like doing anything. I dont want to see or talk to anyone. I havent studied this week. I just so...blah. http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/126703/tired http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/125873/blogs Sat, 04 Dec 2010 11:23:14 -0500 bb4205 Ok so I started a blog on a few different sites. They are all the same. They have all of these posts and all of my non-bipolar posts. I really like hearing what others have to say. I'm very shy. I wish I was good at talking with people. When people comment on my posts it makes me so happy. Wow, somebody cares, somebody out there is just like me. Sometimes I want to cry with relief. I am not alone and everybody out there does not think that I'm... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/125873/blogs http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/124454/bipolar-1-bipoar Sun, 14 Nov 2010 07:56:00 -0500 bb4205 I'm really annoyed. I've been looking online and everybody is saying that bipolar 2 isnt as bad as bipolar 1. Considering everything I've been thru this really pisses me off. http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/124454/bipolar-1-bipoar http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/119826/how-have-i-been Tue, 14 Sep 2010 22:52:55 -0400 bb4205 Thurs May20th was my last entry. So I've been on the wellbutrin a few months now. I did decide to add the 2nd dose in the middle of my day.Those are 150mg each. It seems to work better that way. I dont do the humane society thing anymore. Why cant I stick to doing anything? It seems that when I start doing something I'm very excited. And I like become addicted..like thats all I can do. I cant or wont focus on anything else. Like my brother was... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/119826/how-have-i-been http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/119704/blogging Mon, 13 Sep 2010 11:23:40 -0400 bb4205 I was just curious..Should I have a seperate blog? Before I found this site I had a blog on Vox.com but that site is closing now. I havent been there in almost two years, though. But I have older blogs that I dont want to lose. And is this site for regular blogging- you know, talking about anything even if its stupid and has nothing to do with anything. Or is this site only for bipolar related discussions? And if so does anyone know a good... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/119704/blogging http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/112106/i-m-doing-better Thu, 20 May 2010 15:11:27 -0400 bb4205 Okay so I havent been on here since wellbutrin was added to my other meds. I was a bit worried because of things that have happened in the past. Well, the first two weeks were really bad. I was in the worst depression that I've been in years. I didnt want to do anything (which is normal for me), I didnt want to go anywhere, I didnt want to talk to anyone. I was even avoiding my mom's phone calls which I never do because she worries too much. I... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/112106/i-m-doing-better http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/112104/shallow-thoughts Thu, 20 May 2010 14:48:35 -0400 bb4205 My friend e-mailed this to me. It was something that actually made me laugh so I had to share it.   Shallow thoughts for today*       Nothing ticks you off more than that moment during an argumentwhen you realize you're wrong. *       I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when Iwas younger. *       There is a great need for a sarcasm... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/112104/shallow-thoughts http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/107504/coming-title Fri, 26 Mar 2010 20:52:22 -0400 bb4205 My Job.... Current mood:  anxious Category: Blogging So you know that job I got after 1yr of not working...well I quit it. The worst part is that I was only there for 3 weeks. 3 WEEKS!!!! That is so pathetic. This was the first job I've gotten since learning that I am bipolar. Before I was a very good worker. Every boss I've ever had loved me. I was faster and more reliable than others. My... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/107504/coming-title http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/107339/job Thu, 25 Mar 2010 12:28:01 -0400 bb4205 So you know that job I got after 1yr of not working...well I quit it. The worst part is that I was only there for 3 weeks. 3 WEEKS!!!! That is so pathetic. This was the first job I've gotten since learning that I am bipolar. Before I was a very good worker. Every boss I've ever had loved me. I was faster and more reliable than others. My co-workers would tell me to slow down, I was making them look bad. Well,at this job I felt like a total... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/406881/107339/job