Friday, June 01, 2012
Awndria
  • Awndria
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  • Location: Wright City, MO, United States
  • Gender: Female
  • Birthday: October 04, 1978
  • Bio: have had bipolar disorder since 1997; on meds; finishing college
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HEALTH INTERESTS:

bipolar disorder,  bipolar symptoms,  bipolar disorder treatments,  new meds for bipolar disorder

DRUGS I AM TAKING:

Cymbalta,  Buspar,  Abilify,  Trazadone

ABOUT ME:

I was diagnosed at Hyland Rehabilitation Center in St. Louis, MO, May of 1997. It was heart-breaking to know that I was "abnormal" and "incorrect" somehow. I have always been pretty organized and able to be level-headed until I tried street drugs. Worst mistake. I'm pretty sure if I would have stayed clean, I wouldn't be bipolar. But then again, maybe I can blame it on genetics = it wouldn't be my fault!!! It has taken many attempts to learn to stay on my meds, and also I've tried ending it way too many times. It's finally 11 years+ since my diagnosis. I've realized if I was wanting to be stable and totally in control, for the most part, I'd need to daily--dose by dose, pill by pill = every individual day and night, take my meds correctly. My current psychiatrist is really good and working with me and keeping me out of the psych wards. I have way too much practice regulating myself in hospitals!!! It's now been since Oct. 2006 when I was last in a psych ward and suicidal. That's the longest run I've had with being basically stable = 2 whole years. I know it doesn't seem like much, but it's better than being hospitalized on and off. If you take anything away from my bio, I hope it's this = take your meds prescribed by your psychiatrist regularly as prescribed. It seems so easy. But if you're not yet willing to accept that you have bipolar disorder, my "little" suggestion may seem stupid or not important. Let me tell you through my experience: TAKE YOUR MEDS!!! I've been experiencing bipolar disorder for going on 12 years now. I've done ECT, therapy--group and individual, the constant or ongoing med adjustments, and all the emotional turmoil that is part of bipolar disorder. i wouldn't wish my past on my enemy, but I know I had to live it in order to be who, where, and how I am today. I know it's God and the prayers of my church family, friends, and relatives. Also, it helps a lot having a father who is a pharmacist!! God, of course, knew b4 I was born that I would need psychiatric help and inspired my father to go to pharmacy school. I hope for anyone reading this that somehow their story is hopeful or will be soon. If you have any questions about what I've typed, feel free to e-mail me and ask. Have a better day than usual and don't forget to take your meds.

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