Information and opinions on health from jessi9 at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/424990/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/424990/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/424990/index http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/424990/99958/terrified Tue, 05 Jan 2010 04:27:41 -0500 jessi9 Living with bipolar, I've done a fair share of mucking up relationships.  I can be overreactive, dramatic, flighty, impulsive, angry, analytical, jealous, demanding, all that jazz.  My last relationship was a mess.  I dated an alcoholic who treated me badly, so I always had something to react to.  And when it ended, it ended with an explosion that lasted for months.  It's been almost a year, and I still havent quite... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/424990/99958/terrified http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/424990/99683/social-anxiety Sat, 02 Jan 2010 01:59:33 -0500 jessi9 One of my greatest difficulties with bipolar is an intense feeling of social insecurity.  More often than not, I feel like I am wearing a great flashing sign above my head that reads "abnormal" or "messed up" or something like that.  I feel absolutely transparent.  I am certain everyone knows that I dont have all my ducks in a row, that there is something just not right about me.  And I'm afraid they talk about it.... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/424990/99683/social-anxiety http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/424990/99548/medication Thu, 31 Dec 2009 01:50:56 -0500 jessi9 I am 21, and this past year I was finally diagnosed with bipolar disorder. ( I am also clinically diagnosed with ADD and anxiety disorders).  Since then, I have been taking 10 mg of the med Abilify.  It has definitely helped control the number of "out bursts" I have, but I dont think it has deterred the feelings that I have as a result of bipolar.  All it does is help me bottle them up inside.  Is that what the medication is... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/424990/99548/medication http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/424990/99547/blame Thu, 31 Dec 2009 01:39:44 -0500 jessi9 I am 21 and was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder this past year.  It's safe to say that I have gone through many emotional hardships, which escalated to a point where I started cutting myself two years ago.  (This didnt last very long).  Despite the fact that I now have a diagnosis and an explanation for my behavior, I still feel that very, very few people understand.  Especially my friends.  During a... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/424990/99547/blame