Friday, June 01, 2012
sarahrose
  • sarahrose
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  • Location: United States
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HEALTH INTERESTS:

depression treatment

DRUGS I AM TAKING:

ibprophen

ABOUT ME:

Well I guess where to start. I will apologize for not posting a photo, but I would rather to stay anonymous, due to the fact my photos are all over the web from my modeling career I gave up two years ago. I tend to ramble but ill try to explain what I can. Currently I am not on any treatment and dealing with this phase of my depression better than ever, but still its not easy. Without the doctors, I feel like I am dealing better, and everyone in my life agrees I'm doing better. I have been in and out of doctors since I was 8. First they thought I was ADD or ADHD, later in to bipolar etc. and the list goes on. Truth is they don't know whats wrong. All I know is that they give me pills and I go crazy and try to kill myself. I don't remember the last episode or that week 3 years back. It wasnt my first attempt either. I OD'd on pills at 1 am and woke up at my moms house a week later after being in a hospital getting my stomach pumped. I don't even remember taking the pills. I'm coming in here to try to deal with thing early so I don't deal with that of depression again. I'm okay now no suicidal thoughts, well nothing that I would even deem to act upon they fleet through but you know I think its normal to have the fleeting thoughts. The kid one would act upon are very different, I can tell the difference at least with myself. I have a amazingly wonderful husband and an amazingly good little boy! Things could not be better! I'm a stay at home mom at the moment looking for a job i like. I mean the worst thing is I'm having trouble finding a job I like and being able to conceive. That shouldn't set me into a funk where I cry every day and cant sleep right for weeks. I don't know what to do. I'm hoping someone can help here. Help me figure out how to keep from getting into this really bad and skirt this part of my depression or fix it before it gets bad. Otherwise I don't have a reason for this and in order to be comfortable having a baby I need to fix me so I'm not depressed. I know there are often others with issues as well that are so much worse. I feel bad for being this way with so little being wrong. I oddly deal with major things better than the little ones. I can't stop stressing. Ever.

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