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Marishka on Depression
Tuesday, May 22 2012
I know I have this up on my mirror....'with God, all things are possible'
Yet, I start to sometimes get very confused....
I recite ....God, grant me the courage to change the things I can, accept the things I cannot.......
How to accomplish my goals? Have a happy marraige. Have a livelihood I enjoy that gives... Read more
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Marishka on Depression
Tuesday, May 22 2012
I am so tense I am not breathing deeply. My diaphram is tight as a rock and I am breathing out of my chest.
So tense. When my boyfriend does not call for a few days to a week or so....or maybe calls back once or so....I get very tense...
I like to talk to him most every night. Or every other night or so. ... Read more
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Marishka on Depression
Friday, May 18 2012
Hi,
I guess I need to talk again. Since I feel overwhelmed. I guess it is natural to need to talk but for some reason I feel ashamed when I need to and when I need emotional support.
Thoughts are going through my mind of all the overwhelming things. Negative thinking is creeping in .
Had my 43rd... Read more
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Marishka on Depression
Sunday, May 13 2012
It is mother's day. I don't know all the reasons, but know I feel depressed today.
I feel confused and angry that it seems instead of growing up, moving forward, getting a career, marrying, having a child, instead, just years and years of struggling to stay alive and keep away depression and trying to heal one condition after... Read more
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Marishka on Depression
Wednesday, April 25 2012
Found that it is best to keep Emma and Burt apart.
Emma is happy this way. She is not scared.
Emma is on the floor sleeping near the computer. She is very happy being near me without Burt.
I feed her in this room now.
This is not what I wanted, but I want Emma happy... Read more
