Information and opinions on health from BeadGoddess at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/513214/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/513214/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/513214/index http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/104019/exhaustion Wed, 17 Feb 2010 08:44:47 -0500 BeadGoddess Hi everyone! Ive been so tired lately - like its a struggle to keep my eyes open.   I feel very foggy and very just very drained....it sucks....   Does this ever go away?  I cant live like this....its hard to work full time when all you want to do is sleep....except at night - then I cant sleep.   Also how do you get into a routine.  IM told that if I start going to bed and waking up at the same time that will... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/104019/exhaustion http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/103792/ill-depression Mon, 15 Feb 2010 01:23:09 -0500 BeadGoddess So yesterday I had a tremendously bad anxiety attack that lasted pretty much all day.  I was irritated and annoyed and was in my backlash bulldozing mode....I hate being like this - but once it starts I just cant snap out of it. We had to go to a Benefit gala that my husband's company was a major sponsor for - and about three hours there - three hours of my skin crawling - my heart racing and my mind zig zagging I had to leave.  I... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/103792/ill-depression http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/103616/thoughts-aa Fri, 12 Feb 2010 14:50:26 -0500 BeadGoddess Hello!I posted before the argument my psychiatrist and I had - and how he wants to treat me for addiction vs. bipolar and I want him to do the reverse.  He is pushing me to go to AA everyday which the very thought overwhelms me.  My therapist is working with me on balance and wants me to cut back on meetings - and focus on therapy. Conflicting much?????I like the concepts of AA - and I had a horrible sponsor for awhile (took tough... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/103616/thoughts-aa http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/103592/overwhelmed Fri, 12 Feb 2010 11:28:44 -0500 BeadGoddess The cycles are really getting to me today.  Im learning to truly enjoy the good days....but the past three days Im bleh....I just want to lay around, sleep, eat, and make jewelry (my favorite past time).  I dont want to do step work with my AA Sponsor.  I dont want to go to AA, I dont want to do my BP Workbook.  I dont want to do anything. I have a busy weekend coming up and Im trying to cancel as much as possible - and have... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/103592/overwhelmed http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/103097/learning-enjoy Sun, 07 Feb 2010 10:59:28 -0500 BeadGoddess Good Morning!  I hope everyone is having a good day today!  We got a TON of snow - Im very grateful for loving in laws that gave us their old snow blower!  The foot and a half we got would have been very painful shoveling - and since I was in a funky funk yesterday it would not have gone well.   I just came out of a 3 day funk - which IM happy to say is one of my shortest funks ever.  I was doing ok in the beginning of... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/103097/learning-enjoy http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/102972/mad-psychiatrist Fri, 05 Feb 2010 14:03:52 -0500 BeadGoddess About two years ago I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2.  I denied the diagnosis as long as I could.  With this I often self medicated at times when things were bad with alcohol and pain pills.  Realizing this was NOT the answer I started to get help and cut those out of my life.  I know only take the meds that are prescribed to me.   I started seeing my new psychiatrist.  One of his specialties is in addiction... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/102972/mad-psychiatrist http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/77485/taking-funk-funky Mon, 06 Jul 2009 21:28:50 -0400 BeadGoddess Hello!  I hope everyone had a great holiday.   My holiday weekend started out great.  I did finish my "sanctuary" room! Yeah! So Im proud of that. But, I also did have a VERY bad Saturday.  It was a funky day for me, I was in a bad mood, and my husband and I got into a HUGE fight - that just kept going, and I did something I NEVER do and I took off.  I just drove and drove and drove.   I stopped at an unusual... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/77485/taking-funk-funky http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/77205/day-3-counting Sat, 04 Jul 2009 10:15:59 -0400 BeadGoddess Happy Fourth of July!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   So yesterday was a rollercoaster - and a wild one at that.   I have my own room int he house  - its my own little soon to be sanctuary.  Its where I make my jewelry, think, do crafts, and sometimes just chill...... This room was a NIGHTMARE!!!! So at first I had about 20 projects on my list of things to do this weekend...then I decided...just one.  I wanted to feel a sense of... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/77205/day-3-counting http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/77113/struggling Fri, 03 Jul 2009 14:06:06 -0400 BeadGoddess Im looking for some advice.   My husband is a very loving, LOGICAL person.  the only person he truly shows emotions with is me.  He is very logical.  he thinks things through and sometimes (he admits this) to a fault.   He is struggling so much with understanding Bipolar and me with it.   I tried talking with him about it last night and asked what about it is difficult for him?  WHat does he... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/77113/struggling http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/77087/dealing-bipolar Fri, 03 Jul 2009 09:35:12 -0400 BeadGoddess Part of my therapy is to sort out my thoughts and write things out.  So I journal and I post here.  I post here to gain insight to thing from others and to help me.  It may not be perfect, it may not always be right - but Im trying.  So feel free to read on, but if you dont like it - its ok.....if you do or if you have suggestions, Im open.   Thakn you!   So after the tough love session with my therapist, and... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/513214/77087/dealing-bipolar