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Ice Queen on Bipolar
Wednesday, October 26 2011
It's been a while since i have been on here, dunno really know why i stoped coming on here as much. Today i back as i am really struggling and need someone to talk to. It's two years today since my two little angels died.
The first year was so hard but this year seem's to no better. Everytime their birday comes around or christmas i... Read more
I have often heard that being alone can make the illness worse. I wasn't really sure about this. Now i spend most of my days on my own i am starting to see that it is making my illness worse. I am living with my boyfriend but he works 6 days a week which i understand that he has to work to earn money. What gets me is i moved in with him, he lives... Read more
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Ice Queen on Bipolar
Saturday, June 04 2011
I am just so depressed today, starting to feel numb and distant. I really don't want to sit back and wollow but just can't pick myself up from it. I know i am rapid cycling which my doctor did say was happening to me. The suicidal thoughts have slowly been creeping in and i am fighting not to give in to them. I really don't want to die. But the... Read more
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Ice Queen on Bipolar
Tuesday, November 16 2010
Its now the evening and i am still home alone have been since 8am. My boyfriend hasn't come home from work, rang me and said that he will be in at 6Pm it is now 7Pm and still no sign. I am so mad because this is now the 5th time in one week he has done this to me.
He just keeps going back on his promises and i am now so mad i am... Read more
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Ice Queen on Bipolar
Sunday, December 13 2009
Everything is just falling apart no matter what i do and now i feel like the end has come. It's been 6 weeks since i misscarried my twins and although i thought i was getting there a little i am not. Now i have started to rapid cycle one min i am laughing and not sure what at the next i am crying and in a real state. Even my mum has started to... Read more
