Information and opinions on health from Ice Queen at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/5247/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/5247/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/5247/index http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/146057/years-loss-twins Wed, 26 Oct 2011 13:46:32 -0400 Ice Queen It's been a while since i have been on here, dunno really know why i stoped coming on here as much. Today i back as i am really struggling and need someone to talk to. It's two years today since my two little angels died.   The first year was so hard but this year seem's to no better. Everytime their birday comes around or christmas i really go down and struggle.   I wonder everyday what they would look like, i just hate so much... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/146057/years-loss-twins http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/139457/annoyed Sun, 05 Jun 2011 07:36:17 -0400 Ice Queen I have often heard that being alone can make the illness worse. I wasn't really sure about this. Now i spend most of my days on my own i am starting to see that it is making my illness worse. I am living with my boyfriend but he works 6 days a week which i understand that he has to work to earn money. What gets me is i moved in with him, he lives 200 miles away from where i was living. I left all my friends and my mum behind. I gusse i am now... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/139457/annoyed http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/139412/thought-suicide Sat, 04 Jun 2011 10:05:42 -0400 Ice Queen I am just so depressed today, starting to feel numb and distant. I really don't want to sit back and wollow but just can't pick myself up from it. I know i am rapid cycling which my doctor did say was happening to me. The suicidal thoughts have slowly been creeping in and i am fighting not to give in to them. I really don't want to die. But the thoughts of death are very strong. Just keep thinking that maybe it would be better for me just to... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/139412/thought-suicide http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/124625/feeling-mad-angery Tue, 16 Nov 2010 13:54:21 -0500 Ice Queen Its now the evening and i am still home alone have been since 8am. My boyfriend hasn't come home from work, rang me and said that he will be in at 6Pm it is now 7Pm and still no sign. I am so mad because this is now the 5th time in one week he has done this to me.   He just keeps going back on his promises and i am now so mad i am worryed what i might do.   Ok maybe i am over reacting and being stupid but 4 dinners have been... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/124625/feeling-mad-angery http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/98206/pdoc-rapid-cycling Sun, 13 Dec 2009 14:43:12 -0500 Ice Queen Everything is just falling apart no matter what i do and now i feel like the end has come. It's been 6 weeks since i misscarried my twins and although i thought i was getting there a little i am not. Now i have started to rapid cycle one min i am laughing and not sure what at the next i am crying and in a real state. Even my mum has started to notice as it's so bad and so have my friends.  I went to see my pdoc last week but he wouldn't... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/98206/pdoc-rapid-cycling http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/92420/misscarried-twins Tue, 27 Oct 2009 14:45:33 -0400 Ice Queen Yesterday my whole world was destroyed and i am not sure how i am ever going to get over it. I just had this feeling that something wasn't right 2 weeks ago but when i went to the hospital they told me that i was fine, they gave me an ultrasound and there on the screen was not 1 but 2 babys. I was so relived and happy that all was well although a little shocked that there was 2. Wasn't sure how i was going to mange seen's their father dumped me... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/92420/misscarried-twins http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/91029/emotions-situations Fri, 16 Oct 2009 14:52:44 -0400 Ice Queen I having lots of different emotions today and i am finding it very hard to deal with them, my main problem is anger, just can't seem to shake it off. I am shouting at everyone that speeks to me for really no reason at all. I don't know if it's because i am pregnant and off meds or it's just one of those bipolar days. I think i know what started it  my ex asked to meet up to talk about the pregnacy what we are going to do when the baby is... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/91029/emotions-situations http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/89001/pregnant-scared Thu, 01 Oct 2009 13:56:43 -0400 Ice Queen I don't really know where to start just in such a mess right now. Gusse it's best to start from the begining, I started a relationship with a guy that i thought a lot of i thought that i had finally found someone and that this was it for me, i told him all about my bipolar and he said he didn't care because he loved me for who i am not because i have a disorder. For a long time we where happy we talked about getting married and having... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/89001/pregnant-scared http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/72365/loving-relationship Tue, 26 May 2009 16:01:25 -0400 Ice Queen I have had quite a busy few months and stable one's at that. I have felt normal with no hint of anything it's been the best few months for a very long time never thought i could feel like this. I am now in a very happy relationship with a loving caring guy who for once loves me for me. I really think the world of him and hate being apart. He is the first guy that i have actuerly told everything to. He said he dosen't care if i have bipolar... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/72365/loving-relationship http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/64168/bipolar-affects Sun, 22 Mar 2009 13:59:27 -0400 Ice Queen yesterday i told a friend that i have bipolar i then thought i would just get the usual response that i always get but not this time. This time i got asked question after question. So i started off by saying that it's a mental illness which consists of periods of depression and periods of being really high feeling on top of the world. But then she asked what eles dose it invole. No one has ever asked me before to explain it all in detail so i... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/5247/64168/bipolar-affects