Friday, June 01, 2012
Eunique28
  • Eunique28
    is Seeking support
  • Location: Toledo, OH, United States
  • Gender: Female
  • Birthday: January 23, 1977
  • Bio: My only joy in life is my children.
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HEALTH INTERESTS:

Hip dysplasia,  complications in adults

DRUGS I AM TAKING:

Fentanyl 75 mcg,  Neurontin 300 mg,  Motrin 800 mg,  Celexa 40 mg

ABOUT ME:

Well.... To sum it up I am a very depressed, lonely, and fustrated woman. I am a 31 year old whos stuck in what feels like an 85 year old body. I was born with congenital left hip dysplasia. I led a very close to normal life until 2004 when intensifying pain and decreasing mobility sent me to numerous doctors and ER visits where i was told that i was too young to get a hip replacement and there was nothing they could do to help me other than the usual round of anti-inflammatory drugs they all wanted me to try, that were of little to no help to me what-so-ever.I was told to go home and suffer until i was 35 or older (old enough to get a hip replacement) Until finally after a bad fall down some steps I was referred to a specialist at University of Michigan for a new surgery that would help with these problems and could get me back to a normalish life. I was so excited!! Well, that was 4 years, 3 surgeries and numerous complications ago. I now live with constant intense severe pain in my hip, groin, lower back and knee. My life is a living hell. I wish i could wake up and go back to the pain i originally sought treatment for. I am completely disabled now- and i mean completely! Its all I can do to care for myself and my two beautiful children everyday let alone do simple things like housework, grocery shopping.... little things that people take for granted are no longer in the realm of possibility for me. I spend my days in my recliner or my wheelchair if I am not in bed. My pain has totally ruined my life. Not to mention that it took me 2 years to find a doctor who would even try to give me some relief. And even now he isnt doing everything i feel he could do to help me live a closer to normal life. He throws me a little bone and says "here, hope this helps its all i will do for you"!! And there are no more surgeries that could help me so I am stuck. Stuck living a nightmare. I have even been forced to turn to buying my medication on the street and taking all the risks associated with that! I hate this life! The only things that bring me any joy and keep me from giving up are my kids and my sense of humor. Without them I would be dead now. I still struggle everyday though. I dont feel like a good mother/wife because I cant do very much with or for my children or my husband. My husband is completely insensitive to me and our marriage is complelty destroyed because he didnt marry me this way and he struggles with understanding how to love someone who cant do anything anymore. He does support me financially but barely and not without resentment. He thinks I use my disability to get out of doing things with him and for him, and that is so far from the truth!! I wish i was doing that instead of really living with this much pain! I am sure our marriage is going to end soon and then i will really be screwed because I am still waiting on social security. I have no income and due to my disability and lack of social life, I have no friends anymore. My supoport system is completly gone- which brings me here to this site to try to find some hope, some understanding...... someone out there who might know what I am going through. Someone who might know how lonely, isolated and terrified i am everyday..... I miss my old life. I miss having friends, looking forward to everyday instead of dreading it. I miss having hope for the future. I miss feeling secure with myself and my life. I miss the laughter and happiness i used to have and i hope i can get some of that back here.

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