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Babou
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Location: Newark, DE, United States
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Gender: Female
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Bio: I have been under a psychiatist's care since I was 25.
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HEALTH INTERESTS:
depression, depression treatment, anxiety, insomnia
DRUGS I AM TAKING:
mertazapine, ativan, zyprexa, effexor, lamictal, lunesta
ABOUT ME:
I've just recently gotten some relief from a terrible depression. All the old standby's stopped working for me and I found muyself undergoing ECT's. This treatment proved to be unsucessful. Because of the ECT's, I have very little memory of 2008. I only remember that I was in the hospital three times in 2008. My husband and I have a beach house that we never saw all summer long and a sailboat that he got to sail once. I cried during most of the holidays, cried and isolated myself whenever possible. It's been a long hard journey. I overdosed on ambien sometime last year, but I can't tell much about the experience. I only remeber them stomping into the house and carrying me out like a sack of meal. Now I'm climbing out of this black hole, trying to cope with an ambien and valium addiction. That is the reason for my insomnia,agoraphobia and free floating anxiety. I've made some headway in thaat I'm only taking a tiny bit of Ativan when I absolutly need it. I miss havig a nice long deep sleep. I will get it someday.
My husband, Eben has been very supportive, and I love him very much. He's a kind and loving person. I have my cats who are such a comfort to me. Eben has gotten me a membership in his fitness club so I can get some exercise that helps me to sleep. Since I went from 128 lbs. down to 106, putting on weight has been a goal. That, and firming up. All the toning I got from aerobics has gone and I'm skinny but flabby. I wish I had a depression group tht I could talk to face to face. My therapist suggested tht I start one in her offices. It's worth a try.