Information and opinions on health from updownsideways at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/596611/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/596611/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/596611/index http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/596611/102913/painful-memory Thu, 04 Feb 2010 21:59:14 -0500 updownsideways 16years ago today...my 1st daughter was stillborn. Last night I couldn't sleep..insomnia gotta love it! The memories of that day came back..."worst I've ever seen" "oh my God! No I can't tell you what is happening I need to get my supervisor"(ultrasound tech) "Is my baby dead?", I say thru the lump in my throat "yes but don't worry me my wife we lose baby #1 then have baby #2 no problem you have more later"(ultrasound supervisor)My mind... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/596611/102913/painful-memory http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/596611/102353/gimme-reason Fri, 29 Jan 2010 22:51:29 -0500 updownsideways I wake up wondering why the heck I quit smoking. Doc said no more energy drinks so just ignore the Full Throttle in my hand. I will quit them..maybe tomorrow.  Rage courses through my veins with my blood, my entire body angry. On the way to work I put on Linkin Park letting my rage follow the tempo of the music...."one step closer to the edge..." Gimme a reason my mind screams to completely strangers. Say something in a wrong... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/596611/102353/gimme-reason http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/596611/101788/venting-bipolar Sun, 24 Jan 2010 17:41:41 -0500 updownsideways I was diagnosed with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) & put on meds over 12yrs ago. Back into Oct life just wasn't working I started going to talk therapy. I love my counselor and decided to change my RX Dr so that he was in the same group as my talk shrink...made me feel safer. So anyway I go to the new RX shrink and he ask questions I answer and fire questions back at him...turn about is fair play! He is writing like crazy...I think... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/596611/101788/venting-bipolar