This morning I was feeling confident, better than I had felt in a while, journaling about treating my intrusive, repetitive, destructive thoughts as just that, thoughts, and nothing more. I firmly set myself in that direction and was having a good day. Then, later on this afternoon and into the evening, those "thoughts" came in a tumult,... Read more
I'm not sure how many of you can relate, but I seem to have obsessive elements with my episodes of mania, bipolar depression, and the like. None of the recurring thoughts sit right with me as far as who I really am, but they feel like a shoulder tapping, my own little childish thought that inserts itself everytime my mind hovers around a subject... Read more
I am just on the last legs (thankfully) of a severe episode that lasted a little over seven days. I was manic, depression had me pinned, and obsessive thoughts were on record-skip and there was basically nothing I could do. I met my pdoc on the middle of it and she prescribed a new med that's just now starting to kick in after about four days. I... Read more
So, here I sit; it's about 1AM, and I'm unable to sleep again. As a byproduct of my Bipolar no doubt, my mind will not let my body rest. I've tried everything to bring my mind and body to a normal cycle in which the rest of the world operates soundly. However, giving up caffiene, going to bed at the same time every night, even listening to CDs... Read more
So it's been a week since the roughest portion of my major meltdown and I have a few observations I've made from looking back. Here's what I know.
1. My mind runs way too fast. It takes more than all the energy and sanity I have to keep up with the velocity in which my thoughts run. The madness comes when I can't process all of the... Read more
