Information and opinions on health from Kathy at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/695780/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/695780/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/695780/index http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/122361/ups-downs Mon, 18 Oct 2010 19:52:44 -0400 Kathy Just got thru reading some latest posts.  Now I feel like I can share.  I'm going thru a down right now.  I have 2 teenage daughters and I'm divorced (as I've mentioned before).  My girls can be downright nasty to me and use the divorce to be mean to me.  My counselor once said, don't try to get your self esteem from your kids.  I realize I have to take most of the comments with a grain of salt.  I've been... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/122361/ups-downs http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/120691/easy Sun, 26 Sep 2010 16:01:45 -0400 Kathy My ex husband sent me a nasty email complaining about how I take care of my children.  I have two girls, 17 and 14.  My girls are my top priority.  I still work part time to make sure I'm available to get them to where they need to be and attend all meetings, etc.  I won't give too many details, but let's just say I take pride in being a good mother.  My ex pisses me off.  My boyfriend tells me to let it go.  I... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/120691/easy http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/119822/back Tue, 14 Sep 2010 21:27:37 -0400 Kathy I haven't written in a while, but I think of all of you every day.  Things are pretty much the same for me.  My ex still drives me bonkers, my mother can drive me up the wall, but I'm back to work at the elementary school in my ninth year as a lunch monitor.  It keeps me busy and gives me something to think about.  Plus it's rewarding.  Kids have so simple a view of life.  I've begun trying to eat healthier and... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/119822/back http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/115888/still-here Sun, 11 Jul 2010 17:29:27 -0400 Kathy I keep remembering how I've read here that guilt is a symptom of depression.  It is so dang hard to be able to say "There's nothing I can do about this, so let it go".  I don't want to let it go.  I want a magic wand or special powers to change things.  People on tv do it all the time.  It's so hard making everyone happy.  My boyfriend wants me to go to Florida with him to see his new granddaughter.  I'm all... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/115888/still-here http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/115049/baby-steps Sun, 27 Jun 2010 17:37:30 -0400 Kathy One of my counselors once told me you have to take baby steps.  I'm not all that patient.  I want everything yesterday.  I was having a hard time today because my boyfriend was on the computer and the sound was up high.  A high pitched noise scared the living daylights out of me to the point that I started to cry from anxiety.  I was also frustrated that I can still get so worked up after being "better" since my divorce... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/115049/baby-steps http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/112701/experience Thu, 27 May 2010 14:25:39 -0400 Kathy My sister's wedding anniversary was the other day.  She's been married 19 years.  When she posted her wedding picture on her facebook page, including a picture with me in it as her maid of honor, all the bad memories came back.  I was originally supposed to be SECOND bridesmaid.  Not even first.  There are only two of us in my family.  Two sisters, no brothers.  Eventually, right before the wedding, my mother... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/112701/experience http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/110829/feeling Mon, 03 May 2010 21:53:58 -0400 Kathy I took today off from work because I have a bad chest cold.  Even tho I felt dizzy, I made myself get out of bed to get some dishes and laundry done.  I hate being sick. (OK who likes it really?)  I get so frustrated because I cannot do my normal activities.  Others at work have no problem taking sick days or personal days.  I realize the school will not shut down without me.  However, one of the women I work with... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/110829/feeling http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/110523/wrong Thu, 29 Apr 2010 19:50:38 -0400 Kathy Is anyone else getting this message?  I tried to post something yesterday and I got that message.  Then when I tried to read share posts I got the same message.  Just got it again. http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/110523/wrong http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/110345/post Tue, 27 Apr 2010 21:27:32 -0400 Kathy My ex husband posted on facebook that I was in 3 accidents with my daughters and even named them and gave details.  We were actually in one car accident when we were married.  It was very wet and  my car slid off the road when I had to slam on the brakes.  I just printed out what he wrote so I can show my counselor tomorrow and also keep it for future use if I need to.  But it bothers me that all my friends saw this... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/110345/post http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/110080/listen Sat, 24 Apr 2010 18:43:53 -0400 Kathy With Spring finally here, I'm finding it's very soothing to go outside, sit in the grass and just listen.  The birds singing, the wind in the trees.  It makes me remember simple things.  Sometimes I wish I was 5 years old again.  To be fascinated by an ant hill.  To plunge my fingers into mud and love every minute of it.  Eventually all of the worries of the day return.  But sometimes I find a four leaf clover... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/695780/110080/listen