Information and opinions on health from Kyle at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/703299/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/703299/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/703299/index http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/160269/papers-back Fri, 12 Apr 2013 03:54:42 -0400 Kyle I got my papers back and I've been approved for charity care so I'm going to schedule an appointment with a therapist tomorrow. I'd have done it earlier but didn't get home until 9 so too late.   I got the green light and for the next 6 months I don't have to fret over where I'm going to find help. That's a bit of stress relief on it's own. I'm glad to finally be in the door so to speak cause I've had some real troubles lately that I'm... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/160269/papers-back http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/160091/break-circle Mon, 01 Apr 2013 03:04:45 -0400 Kyle I guess I'll follow it and see where it leads.   So recently I saw my psychiatrist. He said he doesn't know how to help me. I mean he pretty much threw pills at me and told me to leave.   Just like always. However this time he actually told me that if I apply for charity care I can go and see a therapist a few cities over.   I have to take a bus probably super early in the morning to get there once I get my charity care and... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/160091/break-circle http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/159917/moon Fri, 22 Mar 2013 07:42:06 -0400 Kyle I was feeling drained by the days activities. Very drained. So drained I needed to cry. So I went to a safe place, my front porch at night.   The moon was obscured by clouds and in my haze of racing thoughts I likened that moon unto myself. Unable to shine bright cause the clouds obscure it. Then, after a few tears dropped to the earth my mind opened up once again.   The clouds dispersed. In many shapes and each beautiful but still... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/159917/moon http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/159761/section-8-inspection-er Fri, 15 Mar 2013 05:33:20 -0400 Kyle We have a section 8 inspection tomorrow so I gotta be here until they decide to show up but after that I'm catching the bus to go to the ER. I got paid today so I can afford a bus ride now.   Charity care hasn't gotten back to me yet. I called and they said to call again the following week. Well that's actually the upcoming tuesday so until then I'm on my own.    Anyway. Getting tired of feeling helpless and hopeless so I'm... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/159761/section-8-inspection-er http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/159647/back Sun, 10 Mar 2013 01:49:27 -0500 Kyle My arm is on fire. But it's soothing in some way. 33 small cuts today. Just getting worse and worse. I didn't think I'd go back but here I am.   Welcome home, hell.   Why not tell a friend or a psychiatrist?   I have none.   Why not tell my family?   Cause they judge. I don't need judgment I need help.   Least I'm not hearing the voices right now.   Gotta go to bed and get up at 8AM to go to work.... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/159647/back http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/159645/watching-things-burn Sun, 10 Mar 2013 00:29:55 -0500 Kyle A letter to an ordinary person:   I love it I just wish I weren't judged whenever I admitted it. It's not like I'm setting things on fire on purpose and putting lives in danger. But if I light a fire for warmth in the cold you bet I won't take my eyes off it and if it dies down I'll nurse it back to health.   In the presence of fire I feel at home. Hot waves of destruction carefully fenced in for containment. What can destroy life... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/159645/watching-things-burn http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/159440/title-describe Thu, 28 Feb 2013 17:28:30 -0500 Kyle I got up today. Went to collect my pay and found a very small sum of 60 dollars.   2 weeks of work. Cleaning office buildings. 60 dollars for that.   1 of our buildings moved so we only get payed for 2 and I walked out with 60 dollars after working really hard the last 2 weeks. I just realized I may be the lowest paid american citizen in my state who actually has a job. I'm going to the ER tomorrow just for something to... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/159440/title-describe http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/158018/pain-painful Fri, 21 Dec 2012 07:22:33 -0500 Kyle I got a job but it sucks. I don't make a fair wage and the pay is tiny. Christmas is coming up and all that I can think about is my crappy job. I'm a janitor with my mom and she's technically my boss. We work on 3 buildings 3 times a week. So much junk and mess. I make 100 dollars every 2 weeks. It's under the table so no taxes(thank goodness) but it's still a lot of work for very little pay. I hate this with a passion and find myself... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/158018/pain-painful http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/157148/familiar Mon, 12 Nov 2012 07:25:32 -0500 Kyle Well. I've been dealing with some boredom lately as some of you know and today I think I found something fun to do.   I picked up this harmonica I've had for years. I like Harmonica but when I bought it I had very little idea how to play it. All I knew and still know is inhaling and exhaling result in different sounds haha.   But I found some sites and tried out some tabs and this seemingly empty brain of mine suddenly had... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/157148/familiar http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/156978/hopelessness Mon, 05 Nov 2012 03:38:40 -0500 Kyle I don't know. Recently over the last couple weeks I've just had no interest in doing anything. Nothing entertains me. Not sure if I'm looking for something fresh or what. I don't want to watch movies, Video Games bore me quickly, I can't seem to stand TV either. I even watched a new episode of my favorite show and it got me nowhere.   It kinda feels like no matter what I try to do whether it be type on my computer, watch something, play... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/703299/156978/hopelessness