Hi and nice to meet you.  I just wanted to share some of my basics so you get a feel for what, or rather, why I'm here and why I blog and write.  I have Complex, Chronic PTSD, Bipolar, ADHD, and some branch off of the Dissociative family.  I suffered for ten years and then a year and half ago it hit--took me down down down.  Everything changed.  I suffered severe symptoms, psychosis, flashbacks, hypervigilence, paranoia, delusions (psychotic)...complete, utter terror every day.  I was sexually, physically, and emotionally abused as a child, from five up.  I had no identity, I was empty.  I'm here to tell you that once the healing starts, once you surrender to the dark and slosh through it, you will find the light where the wound is.  Grace.  It's possible, I swear on everything I am.  The year-long peak of PTSD saved me--saved me from a life of emptiness and half emotions, numbed love and no interest in myself as a spirit.  Today I am whole.  Today I am recovering.  Today I took an extra step (ever so small) in the right direction, scared or not.  You have to rebuild your life, and I'm telling you it's possible beyond your wildest dreams. I've also had poetry published in a number of journals and am embarking on a writing career so I'll be broke forever. I blog at Difficult Degrees and PTSD Creative Writing. These blogs contain a number of poems, stories and essays on my struggles with mental illnesses and childhood abuse.  Anything goes here.