Wednesday, May 30, 2012
GABBIE3334

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ABOUT ME:

I have lived with pain for 5 years now.The trip hasnt been a pleasant one.I slipped and fell on ice at age 29.I have had all the injections. In 2005 I got a 90% chance of a full recovery if I did the fusion and graft. Well harware has slipped left with nerve damage forever. Im married although there is no support there or from my mother. I can be crying in pain and he doesnt even ask what for or even bother to come ask why! It hurts what if the tables were turned. I feel as if he turned his back on me a long time ago. Ive talked to him about being supportive and all Ive gotten is I dont want to treat you like your handicapped.I belive he wants to have his wife be me again but I never will be that person again. He became a computer addict less then a year into my pain trials. Want to talk about feeling like crap of course I got the blame for that. He had no one but them blah blah. Who did I have? A mother that is so into herself she cant be anything but selfish.I feel as if I ruin everything. Ive been in more pain then ever and get ignored and feel like Im bad if I need to lay down.Ive been to counseling with him but that never helped. How do your spouses handle your disablilites? What do they do to help/ not help. Thats the biggest thing ive been dealing with is no support and after 5 years Im tired of feeling alone. I didnt ask or sign up for this. Let me add I have a 4 year old was pregnant with right after the fall and almost 10 year old. Please any ideas before I fall any deeper into this depression.Im so glad to have found this group. I have read some post and can relate to most of you. i hope to talk with you and share stories and make friends who understand just what pain is. Thanks, Tricia

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Living With It in Chronic Pain