Information and opinions on health from WendyWanderer at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/7236/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/7236/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/7236/index http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/56247/anxiety-ridden Mon, 19 Jan 2009 22:24:51 -0500 WendyWanderer I spent the fall and early winter hanging on the edge. I didn't feel "bad" .. I just felt... I guess it was over the top anxiety. Buying a house has been an exercise in learning how to cope when you have limited control. I know also that the winter months are worse for me. It's strange.. I really prefer winter from a comfort with my own skin standpoint.. but I feel more miserable in the winter months.   I started looking and had a... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/56247/anxiety-ridden http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/40140/hanging Tue, 09 Sep 2008 00:07:18 -0400 WendyWanderer I've started working with a realtor, - just met with her Friday and the plan is to start looking at houses tomorrow.. if she was able to set up any viewings, I think most of the properties currently have tenants. I'm working on getting my preapproval. I'm all stressed out, I don't think I can take any set backs..   These days I'm kind of just getting things done - I keep linking it all to "the house"... gotta take care of the fact my... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/40140/hanging http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/38057/didn-disappear Thu, 21 Aug 2008 21:56:30 -0400 WendyWanderer I am so.... blah.. I can't say I'm in crisis.... but I can't say I'm doing well either. I had some very frustrating financial issues... it just seems like I get a couple steps ahead and then slam... double that backwards. For awhile it was taking every bit of effort I could muster just to get through my days and it didn't seem like I had anything left over for even the most cursory of journaling efforts.   I'm still on the 150mg a day of... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/38057/didn-disappear http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/26761/insomnia Fri, 02 May 2008 05:17:02 -0400 WendyWanderer I tried to lay down and get some sleep, but I just couldn't fall asleep. So here it is after 5 am- the birds have been chirping for an hour already/   If I fall asleep now I get about 2 hours sleep (3 if I do the really fast morning routine of jumping into the clothes and rushing out of the house without much thought) That's not enough... but I haven't figured out if it works out better for me to get no sleep at all or a couple... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/26761/insomnia http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/25958/agitated-day Thu, 24 Apr 2008 21:30:30 -0400 WendyWanderer   I was trying to upload a new icon/avatar and instead I got an error and my old one disappeared... .. that was a few days ago.. and I still can't upload a new one.. that's annoying.... but everything is today for some reason.   I got the stitches out today- I hope all ends up well with my hand, but I do know already all the numbness and tingling I was living with stopped immediately after the surgery.. I noticed that in spite of the... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/25958/agitated-day http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/25621/tunnel-surgery Sun, 20 Apr 2008 20:30:50 -0400 WendyWanderer   I had carpal tunnel surgery last week. Just on the right hand, so I'm getting through life one handed... and it's my best hand   This compression bandage is off now, and I'll get the stitches out next week... It looks pretty nasty right now. The doc gave me darvocet for the pain-but I don't like the way it makes me feel so I've been avoiding it.   I've been kind of in a dreamlike state between the surgery and pain, and... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/25621/tunnel-surgery http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/24881/thing-day Thu, 10 Apr 2008 23:47:00 -0400 WendyWanderer At some point in my wanderings the last couple days I saw an article about depression actually increasing this time of year. Now I can't find it- I wanted to link to it.. heck it might have been HERE! Anyway I just skimmed it and thought... wow.. I just wrote about that. Well -- I'm somewhat normal in my abnormality And to think, I've always been rather fond of my oddities.  Another decent night of sleep last night.. 7 1/2... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/24881/thing-day http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/24746/today Wed, 09 Apr 2008 22:56:00 -0400 WendyWanderer Things went much better today. After a couple weeks of dysfunction. It really helped getting enough (or at least closer to enough) sleep last night. I felt good this morning. Still a little blah.. but not down.  The weather was lovely and I think that helped as well. The receptionist kindly limited referrals to my line... I didn't ask her to but she figured since I was out a few days I wasn't feeling very well. I appreciated that a... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/24746/today http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/24615/weird-season Tue, 08 Apr 2008 23:54:00 -0400 WendyWanderer I noticed that almost a year ago that I initially started trying to keep this journal here. And it's been months and months since I posted anything at all. So while everyone with SAD is starting to bounce back as the nice weather sets in I'm crashing? And apparently that's the norm for me?  I'm thinking back over the the years and it's definitely this time of year that seems to do me in. Is it just when I run out of... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/24615/weird-season http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/12237/blah-blah-8 Sun, 12 Aug 2007 21:11:00 -0400 WendyWanderer I don't know... years ago when I first went to a doctor about depression and the effexor fortunately started to work and work quickly I told the doctor (on a visit after the drugs had been working for some time) that my mood was probably 5 or 6 on a scale of 1 to 10. He suggested a higher dose. I didn't want to, he wondered why I would be content with being "okay" when I might be able to feel better. I don't know if he knew... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/7236/12237/blah-blah-8