I have 19 grandkids, I was diagnosed 8 years ago with Bp, I am mostly manic but when the dark side hits, it hits hard, I am on SSDI and a Fulltime college student. I thought I could not set on my fanny and draw SSDi so at 50 I started school. I have graduated with 3 degrees and 5 certifcate all in the human service, psychology field. Just starting a masters program in jan.  At times I feel like I am a BP success story because I was so wigged out 6-8 years ago. But I have found that good treatment and family support does help. I am fairly open minded and that helps also.

Love music: Led Zeppelin, coutry, keith Richards, Tommy Bolin and blues. I am a published poet and plan to write a book about this crazy illness and poetry. I have many plans and deep inside I knew I will make it. However, when times are rough as they are at the moment I question my own sanity. My partner is Bp also and usually that is a great support system we have. But he is usually depressed and I am more manic. usually we can balance out but many times I feel I can not take this any longer. What we all have going on in our heads becomes too much even at a creative point.

I seem to live for other and forget to live for myself most of the time. However, in the end I fight like heck to find anything postive to get me back on track but it is hard to do it for two people. Would like to share thoughts with others living with or a family member struggling with Bp.