Information and opinions on health from kekelami at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/77620/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/77620/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/77620/index http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/77620/27560/feeling Sun, 11 May 2008 19:21:53 -0400 kekelami it has been some time, I have come a long way. I now sleep from 10pm to 5am which I think is good but I just do not feel like myself. I am not depressed but I feel life is not worthy living. I do not feel siucidal I.e. I do not want to kill myself but I feel I would be better off dead. I do not understand it. Am I depressed? am I suicidal? Actually Iam afraid to die yet I feel I would be better off dead. Does not make sense. Can somebody... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/77620/27560/feeling http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/77620/21866/lack-sleep-2 Mon, 17 Mar 2008 14:52:00 -0400 kekelami The last two nights I slept well. I do not know if this is due to the new medication dosage or the over the counter cough medication and decogestant that I was taking because the last two days I had the flu.I am praying that the new medication doses is taking effect. I am listening to all of you and taking advice. I will keep hanging there.Kekelami http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/77620/21866/lack-sleep-2 http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/77620/21517/lack-sleep Fri, 14 Mar 2008 19:19:00 -0400 kekelami It has been two years since I had a decent night sleep, it all started with my last breakdown that I described in my profile. I talked to my doctor today and yes we are increasing the trazadone to 100mg at night in the hope that I can sleep more than three hours. I do fall asleep and after three hours I am up and cannot go back to sleep. This is when I add two tylenol pm tabs to try and get back to sleep and this is where I fear I will hurt... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/77620/21517/lack-sleep