Information and opinions on health from Karri28 at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/782423/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/782423/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/782423/index http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/140269/full-information Tue, 21 Jun 2011 16:07:22 -0400 Karri28 My 14 yr old nephew is staying with me for two weeks and I want to explain bipolar to him in a way he can understand. Unfortunatly my Dad (his guardian) thinks it's just high's and lows like everyone else and that if I got rid of the stressors in my life I'd be fine (did I mention that my Dad studies psychology over 50 yrs ago?) My nephew does not understand, and I find myself at a loss when I try to talk to him. Any suggestions? http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/140269/full-information http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/139870/family-toxic Mon, 13 Jun 2011 17:05:27 -0400 Karri28 I have a strange family, I'm sure I'm not alone there, but I feel that way sometimes. I am estranged from my brother and sister, I tried to shrug off their hurtful snipes at me as part of the grief process, my oldest sister had just died due to cancer (before that, they had cut all ties with her... seeing a pattern..) The emails turned ugly, as they tried to dredge up everything I may or may have not done in the past 10 years. 10 years of them... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/139870/family-toxic http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/139754/music Fri, 10 Jun 2011 23:44:20 -0400 Karri28 So, a few weeks ago, I head to bed and as soon as I start to drift off, I hear music (I'm a really light sleeper). It sounds like maybe alt. rock. By midnight I'm ready to call the police on the neighbor or go over to their house, and my husband swears he can't hear a thing. Then it happens again, and again.... But at different times, with different music. It sounds like it's coming from another room or outside, which is frustrating b/c if I'm... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/139754/music http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/114193/end Wed, 16 Jun 2010 09:23:21 -0400 Karri28 I haven't been able to get up early to do my yoga, and can't do it while my little ones are awake, they think Mommy turns into a jungle gym when I do and want to help, gotta love them. Between them and hubby I know I'll get through this,but sometimes it just doesn't feel like it. I want to get over this, my kids need my, my hubby needs me, and the house needs me to get off my rear and clean it. Hubby is trying to help, but he is horrible at... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/114193/end http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/113849/latest-update Fri, 11 Jun 2010 15:26:56 -0400 Karri28 Sooo... if I don't get doing any better in 3 weeks I'm going back inpatient. The doc wants to try to keep me out of inpatient, so we upped on of my meds and added another that will hopefully counter whatever it is that is making me so darn tired. I actually got up and cleaned my car today, and organized a little bit, the stuff that I have to have in there that usually ends up rolling around on the floor (peanuts for after anxiety attacks, wipes... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/113849/latest-update http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/113711/fighting Thu, 10 Jun 2010 11:11:59 -0400 Karri28 I'm still feeling down, I just want to sleep. I have no energy. I'm seeing my p-doc today, so maybe he can adjust things. I start working 2 days a week next week and need energy to keep up with a room full of kids! I'm also thinking about getting on disability if I can't handle the job. I hope I can, but with my anxiety so high and my energy so low, I'm not sure if I can.   I'm trying to get back into my old routine, just going to bed... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/113711/fighting http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/113550/feeling Tue, 08 Jun 2010 13:25:58 -0400 Karri28 My mood is still down, just different levels of down. I feel like I'm empty yet so heavy. Every task seems like it is too much, no matter how small it is. I haven't been able to get much done, but my MIL and FIL gave my husband a good talking to about helping out more around the house. so far he is doing ok at it. I was so worried about having the kids full time this week, and God blessed me with a pop up reminder on my computer that it is VBS... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/113550/feeling http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/112901/inpatient Sun, 30 May 2010 06:11:51 -0400 Karri28 I started having more sever anxiety attacks and 'self mutilating' it make me feel like was letting out some of the pain inside that I know of no other way to get out. Then I started thinking about OD'ing. I'd never under normal circumcstances do that. I don't want to hurt  my family like that.   So my husband came home and I was such a mess that I finally told him all of what what going on. He had already been trying to call my p-doc... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/112901/inpatient http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/112442/hurting Mon, 24 May 2010 20:16:11 -0400 Karri28 I hurt so bad inside. I don't know what to do. I can't sit still, it makes the empty pain worse. I have to make myself get up and move, do something, and think of what I might be able to do next to keep my mind busy. Drive my nails into my hand, the external pain helps to lessen the internal pain. Is that bad? If I had a sharp knife I think I'd probably do worse than just have nail marks. The palms of my hands are bruised, but it feels like a... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/112442/hurting http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/112332/plea-advice Sun, 23 May 2010 16:52:26 -0400 Karri28 I feel worse. I'm sinking. Undertows are pulling me down. I think I'm doing an ok job outwardly at not seeming as bad as I feel. My kids and my DH are what is keeping me going. Large crowds of people are now making me have pretty bad anxiety attacks. The only thing that keeps me from having a case of the screaming me-me's is pain. I dig my nails into my hands, arm, whatever is available. I have a metal bookmark in my Bible that ironically says... http://www.healthcentral.com/bipolar/c/782423/112332/plea-advice