Survivor of abuse- I have a borderline personality and bipolar ( mixy). What ever that means. To me it means fighting depression with mania thrown in at the same time. I am almost always depressed. I am reclusive. The older I get the more I want to not leave my house. I have been married 3 times. The 1st husband was abusive. He is listed as a sexual predator on the Alabama website and will be there until he dies. He molested both of my children (yes mine - they are 21 and 19 and say he is just a sperm donor) He was convicted for his 3rd wifes children from a previous marriage. He is a  photographer and is not supposed to be around minors. He has not done jail time and never will I guess. He does photos for people with children because they are told I MADE UP the charges and it was to get custody. His conviction has nothing to do with me however. I deal with PTSD along with my children. My son has been ill all his life with cyclic vomitting and PTSD. He also is schizo affective.  I have been stalked all over Alabama by my first husband. Since he doesn't believe in illness I should be safe on this site. I live off the map. So far he hasn't traced me. He has found my daughter numerous times and continues to stalk her. It does no good to ask or tell him to stop contacting her. I am too old and too tired to spend my life running. Perhaps by meeting people like me -- I can go outside my BFE again. I have broken my neck 3 times and am paying the price on that one. I try really hard to just make it through a day sometimes. Other times I am fine. Sometimes I wonder why I am here at all. Life is complicated and stressful enough just being normal. How in hades are we to deal with a "handicap" under stress?