Information and opinions on health from Marishka at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/850274/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/850274/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/850274/index http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/140111/groundsquirr Sat, 18 Jun 2011 09:35:26 -0400 Marishka There are adorable ground squirrels here.  The other day, I saw a baby.  This was the cutest thing I have seen except for cats of course.  About, two inches long!   Thin legs, one half inch off the ground, skittering along.  Little cute face like a tiny squirrel.   I smiled and my heart melted.    Animals and nature are very healing.       Marishka http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/140111/groundsquirr http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/140110/bothering Sat, 18 Jun 2011 09:30:31 -0400 Marishka    I am all over the board.  I am going to request my heart count please go back to what it was, because 'they' took all my love away.  They took my hearrrttttssss. Where are all my hearts???? I want my hearts!!! :)  OK, have to make a joke of it.   Disorganized thinking.  Depression.  But my new license plate is bothering me just as much the hearts are!!  Hilarious right?  Not really,... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/140110/bothering http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/140024/depression Thu, 16 Jun 2011 18:55:42 -0400 Marishka Depression often is said to be anger turned inwards.     Anger is thought to be a secondary emotion.  That is, under anger one is supposedly feeling powerless, helpless or fearful.   So underlying depression, one is supposedly feeling powerless, fearful or helpless.    I know for myself, I start by identifying my feeling fearful, or terrified.  After some hours or perhaps days,  I can no longer... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/140024/depression http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139904/falling-hole Tue, 14 Jun 2011 08:49:05 -0400 Marishka You walk down the street, fall into a hole.  You take a long time to get out.     You walk down the same street, fall into the hole again, take a little less time to get out.  You walk down the same street, see the hole, but fall in again.   You walk down the same street, see the hole and walk around it.     You walk down a different street.   Depression is very strange.  I often feel I have... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139904/falling-hole http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139878/apartment Mon, 13 Jun 2011 17:35:32 -0400 Marishka I am confused.  And scared.  I have to pick something and do it.  And I don't know if I will be able to rent a home or townhome or apt.  My mother does not want to be on a year lease.   I don't think many places are other than that. I am sure I need more information. I am just very scared. Not enough support.   I don't want to move.  I love Charlie the cat so much.  Sounds strange but I really have so... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139878/apartment http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139874/disheartening Mon, 13 Jun 2011 17:22:41 -0400 Marishka My confusion over the hearts is why?  What is the motive?  Usually a business is trying to increase profit.  Is this site, health central, for profit? Nonprofit?    What could be the motive to put these hearts on here?  Is it possible that it could feel to some like valentines day as a kindergarten child, some get valentines, some feel left out.  I really think it detracts from the point of helping people,... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139874/disheartening http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139725/handling Fri, 10 Jun 2011 12:24:00 -0400 Marishka How do you handle change?  It disrupts my sense of self.  My inner balance. Makes me dissociate really.  The anxiety is unreal. The wanting to harm myself, why?  Feeling out of control?     I cannot imagine the end result, it is a huge void in my mind and this makes me panic.   I am moving soon.  I think.  I still have this little hope that I am not.  I talked with my roommate, we apologized... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139725/handling http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139446/puffed Sat, 04 Jun 2011 22:33:58 -0400 Marishka Hi,  My roommate seems to be walking about with her feathers all puffed up now that she has been very cruel and told me to move within a month.   Shortly before that, she was asking how long I think I would stay,  wanting me to stay.   Is she just mean?  A non Christian Christian?  She has not apologized.  I think she hates her job and her life and feels that this is her townhome and wants to shove her... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139446/puffed http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139445/weird Sat, 04 Jun 2011 22:12:28 -0400 Marishka Hi,   what does anyone think?  I have this notion that if I accept money from my mother or father, there is some negative energy attatched to it that somehow makes things go badly.     I could get some sage and burn it?     Or in anything, if the money or thing comes from someone or something with negative energy, it somehow will be bad, have a negative outcome.  Even for example buying a computer from... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139445/weird http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139272/therapist Wed, 01 Jun 2011 23:03:17 -0400 Marishka Hi,   tomorrow new EMDR therapist.  I hope it goes well.  I hope I like him and feel safe with him.   What do people in the jungle in Africa do if they get PTSD?  I don't think they have EMDR :)  And they may get it from tigers shasing them?  What do they use to heal?   Maybe some natural plants and steam rooms or chanting and drumming.  I think this would work... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/850274/139272/therapist