i told them that i cut again. i told mom not to be angry but she was. just a bit. we got a bandaid thats big enough but it's already starting to fall off. imma use the heavy duty clear tape to hold it on haha. but the thing that worries me is this: she told me that if i cut again, i can't see my best frined on christmas in person. if i cut after... Read more
i did it again... this time, one on my shoulder. five on my leg. when will this end.. I CAN'T BELIEVE I DID IT AGAIN! im so stupid! worthless! a coward! pathetic! so terribly ashamed for cutting again... i was left home along and i knew from the moment they left the house where this was heading. im going to church tomorow... im going to my... Read more
i am tired. my shoulders ace. i am mad constantly about many various things. life, games, computer issues, myself. i am having cutting urges and if the recent ones on my shoulder heal completely before i see the councelor, i know there will be fresh ones. i will tell my councelor but i am worried he will tell my parents... it's not that i'm scared... Read more
I am typing this to distract myself until my parents get home on 35 minutes. i have just tried to cut on my shoulders and arm. and if you really look, you can see the scar on my arm. i was so stupid! cutting is one thing but on your ARM is another! i mean, it's the most visable part of my body! it's like saying, mom, go and cry. step dad... Read more
I am having a... really hard time breathing i guess... maybe it's not THAT bad but i still have to put effort into every breathe. and i am light-headed. it's getting worse by the hour and i am a bit worried. i have been light-headed alot for the past 2-3 weeks. the light-headed episodes can last from... a few minutes to the whole entire day. when... Read more
