Information and opinions on health from Girlineedofhelp at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/883243/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/883243/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/883243/index http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145722/moms-reaction Wed, 19 Oct 2011 09:04:59 -0400 Girlineedofhelp i told them that i cut again. i told mom not to be angry but she was. just a bit. we got a bandaid thats big enough but it's already starting to fall off. imma use the heavy duty clear tape to hold it on haha. but the thing that worries me is this: she told me that if i cut again, i can't see my best frined on christmas in person. if i cut after that, i wont see her in real on easter. and after that, she will spank me like a little baby. she... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145722/moms-reaction http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145712/stop-trigger Tue, 18 Oct 2011 22:45:43 -0400 Girlineedofhelp i did it again... this time, one on my shoulder. five on my leg. when will this end.. I CAN'T BELIEVE I DID IT AGAIN! im so stupid! worthless! a coward! pathetic! so terribly ashamed for cutting again... i was left home along and i knew from the moment they left the house where this was heading. im going to church tomorow... im going to my councelor... and my parents... they need to know but.. but... i hate to see my mom cry and they wont know... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145712/stop-trigger http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145658/warning Mon, 17 Oct 2011 23:07:37 -0400 Girlineedofhelp i am tired. my shoulders ace. i am mad constantly about many various things. life, games, computer issues, myself. i am having cutting urges and if the recent ones on my shoulder heal completely before i see the councelor, i know there will be fresh ones. i will tell my councelor but i am worried he will tell my parents... it's not that i'm scared of them. it's just they don't listen to me. mom is in denial and step dad rides along with her. i... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145658/warning http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145394/shoot-warning Tue, 11 Oct 2011 23:31:23 -0400 Girlineedofhelp I am typing this to distract myself until my parents get home on 35 minutes. i have just tried to cut on my shoulders and arm. and if you really look, you can see the scar on my arm. i was so stupid! cutting is one thing but on your ARM is another! i mean, it's the most visable part of my body! it's like saying, mom, go and cry. step dad start worrying. i really want to cut. sooo badly i want to cut. the only thing thas stopping me is my... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145394/shoot-warning http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145256/worried Sat, 08 Oct 2011 18:05:56 -0400 Girlineedofhelp I am having a... really hard time breathing i guess... maybe it's not THAT bad but i still have to put effort into every breathe. and i am light-headed. it's getting worse by the hour and i am a bit worried. i have been light-headed alot for the past 2-3 weeks. the light-headed episodes can last from... a few minutes to the whole entire day. when i stand up regular or even maybe slowly, my eyes go colorful and i can't see anything for about 5... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145256/worried http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145172/help Thu, 06 Oct 2011 20:57:49 -0400 Girlineedofhelp I don't feel like wrighting but I know I probobly should. I am depressed badly and I have cutting urges constantly. It's all back to hell for me and I just don't know what to do. Schools shortened tomorow and then I have the weekend. i'm failing two classes and I'm behind on alot of work. On monday i will see my coucnelor but my arms itch so much right now... and I'm home alone until midnight tonight. I knew nothing would change after I... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145172/help http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145070/coming-back Tue, 04 Oct 2011 22:38:56 -0400 Girlineedofhelp ugh... where to start... schools terrible. i can't do much more and i'm trying not to think about doing a whole year of it. it's only the second month but i'm ready to run away or something. i wont but the thought creeps into my head. i'm to scared and chicken to run away fortunately and im not that stupid. cutting urges have returned and i'm home alone now. that worries me. no scuisidal thoughts yet and i wont let them through. i'm not going... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/145070/coming-back http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/144898/night Fri, 30 Sep 2011 22:49:41 -0400 Girlineedofhelp hey. i haven't posted in a while so i thought i would post something. my nights not going very good. i'm very homesick and my stomach is one big knot. i am home but i miss my friend  and i wish to be with her. and I AM GETTING MY BLOOD DRAWN AND I HAVE A PHOBIA OF NEEDLES. HEEEEEEEELP! i know all you guys can do is post and share advice but i still ask for help. thats all for now. oh and i am a bit depressed again... ugh... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/144898/night http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/144091/feels-happy Tue, 13 Sep 2011 19:04:41 -0400 Girlineedofhelp i whent to my councelor and he told my mom that i was having scuicidal thoughts. she didn't cry and didn't talk any more about it and didn't even tell my step dad which is a sign for her that shes in denial again... but WHO CARES! guess what!!! i have NO idea what happened but i am very happy now. it feels great. im not depressed. no cutting or scui urges. and i dont mind taking showers for a change! i don't know what happened but who cares. oh!... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/144091/feels-happy http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/143968/week-starts Sun, 11 Sep 2011 13:25:11 -0400 Girlineedofhelp hey guys... i chat with people on a chat site and i have a friend who lives in Georgia. My friend from Georgia (not my best friend but another friend.)told me last night that she was going to leave the chat site for ever and she wasn't going to text me ever again or text my other friends (the're her friends to.) i lost another friend... like, the 10th one in 5 years. not joking. shes around the tenth one. my hearts shattered and i almsot... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883243/143968/week-starts