Information and opinions on health from prettybutterfly35 at HealthCentral.com. HealthCentral.com is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/887754/index http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/887754/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/profiles/c/887754/index http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/115813/children Fri, 09 Jul 2010 23:33:13 -0400 prettybutterfly35 I want to get married one day and have at least one child, no more than 2. How do you tell your fiance about your condition and is it wise if you are doing well and mind others children constantly and they think you are responsible and if you need to take medication throughout pregnancy to have children? Has anyone had a child with my condition and taken drugs(sz drugs only) throughout their pregnancy. I had a trial off the drugs and I got... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/115813/children http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/105434/positive Thu, 04 Mar 2010 03:19:08 -0500 prettybutterfly35 I have tried so hard all my life and especially during my illness and after I was diagnosed. I went out on a limb to get better and to remain positive and credit that the reason for improving. However, the past few years I have had my self confidence chipped away as the tide washes over rocks for the longest time. I went to community college and studied to get back in the swing of things and on to complete a bachelor's degree. However, copped... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/105434/positive http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/102626/increased Tue, 02 Feb 2010 05:04:23 -0500 prettybutterfly35 The worst side efffect of risperdal for me is increased dream activity. I have nightmares ranging from dreams where I wake up screaming, dreams where it seems so real I am not sure if I am sleeping or not, and characters which seem real I have thoughts about them in waking life.   I dream about celebrities, people I have met, people I know, and they involve themes which shock and disturb. I have a dream character in my head and I have... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/102626/increased http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/99680/nosy-people Fri, 01 Jan 2010 23:58:50 -0500 prettybutterfly35 Looking at the stories on here makes me realise how far I have come. I am back to normal. But that is not to say I have not been through a lot. How do you deal with people asking what you do? Or when you are working asking what you have done before. I have done a lot for someone who has this illness but not a lot for someone who has not.     I will give you a few examples. At a party, this well meaning man asked what I did. Not... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/99680/nosy-people http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/98935/find Wed, 23 Dec 2009 03:41:04 -0500 prettybutterfly35 Does anyone else have mind racing thoughts at a million miles an hour, especially when people put pressure on you? Does anyone else feel unconfident, negative and lacking in personal development in relation to their peers? Does anyone else feel as if they are not good enough when compared to others who seemingly have so much more? Does anyone else feel people keep them down and they would rather be alone, with nobody pressuring them? Does anyone... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/98935/find http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/98832/hollywood Mon, 21 Dec 2009 23:28:22 -0500 prettybutterfly35 Even "A beautiful mind" is not really accurate. I could not relate to it much at all. I realise it is different for everybody, but my experience was terrifying and if it were to be made in a movie, would be a horror movie. People's faces kept changing, I thought people were in disguise, other such psychotic things that would mess with people's heads were it to come out in a movie. I dream of writing a book about it, but do not know where to... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/98832/hollywood http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/98718/thoughts Sun, 20 Dec 2009 21:58:55 -0500 prettybutterfly35 When under stress, I think of weird, funny thoughts which always make me feel better. Stuff normal people would think as very strange and only another person who has what I have would understand. I could tell you but fear you would think I was very strange. My dreams are real, and involve these obsessions and weird stuff. I laugh at it but at the same time realise it will not happen. My dreams have come true on the odd occasion though, words,... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/98718/thoughts http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/98717/problems Sun, 20 Dec 2009 21:40:44 -0500 prettybutterfly35 Does anybody else seem to have memory problems, which become worse if you do not take your medication? I am otherwise normal but seem to forget day to day things in the workplace and doing everyday things, such as turning the lights out. When I was sick, I was very bad but have improved. Because of this, I am finding it hard to have the confidemce to work and to hold down a job. Employers become frustrated by me, having explained things to me... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/98717/problems http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/95968/ramblings Mon, 23 Nov 2009 02:12:38 -0500 prettybutterfly35 Ok I have made friends online through different sites and kind of "tested the waters" in regards to telling them what I have been through and about my illness. I am surprised by people's lack of understanding and ignorance. Some have blocked me, some have asked me if I have a carer and how I can look after myself, some have called me crazy, some have asked if I have taken drugs. Some think I am insane and feel sorry for me. I want nothing... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/887754/95968/ramblings