i was in the last of 5 car accidents,all of which were in appx 2 year span and 4 of which i was the front passanger, 3 of those 4 were passanger side collisions, of those 3 its more than a miracle that they occured directly behind me and in front of me. there must have been angels there protecting me.. on march 8, 2007 was the last mva... and as of sept.2007 right before my 25 birthday i got hit with in insurmountable amount of pain that i felt all over. now a year a half later i am recieving trigger point injections with the diagnosis of Myofascial Pain Syndrome... on top of that i have developed a new kind of anxeity and MPS and anxiety go hand in hand.. i was once a personal trainer who couldnt stay still, ADHD to the extreme.. i was too busy running around trying to plan and run my own life myself, this pain has truely woken me up to reality, the supernatural reality of Jesus and how He saves... and i want to pass it on to others suffering in pain because of the healing touch He has, the understanding and peace you recieve from Him when all else seems lost.. hope is not all lost, there is just another door waiting to be unlocked. for me, the hardest part of the transformation was the acceptance part. i had to fully come to terms with my chronic pain, nevermind my age, to just accept it is what it is... and i also accecpt that anything is possible, that maybe tomorrow i will wake up to a signifigant drop in pain if even none at all... there is my hope, my hope is in Jesus... life has changed, things are sometimes seeming to get easier, because ive gotten used to it with out fighting it off, acceptance is the key..what if this is what we are all meant to go through to wake up and experience life... i hope not, the suffering from the pain alone is too much. and my emotioal pain i get once a month when i cry my eyes out, because the old way has passed, the new has come... not only for myself, but for the world as well, for all human civilization... the time is coming and its coming up really fast... about me, i hopeful for my destiny. update.. car accident numero 6 was on new years eve day 2009, again i was the front passanger. the truck skidded on the icy snowy roads hitting a tree right at my door... the glass from the window exploded in on me and i had glass all over me down my pants and in my sneakers. i was unable to move until the police showed up. this was THE last, knock on wood, of accidents.

as for now im reaquainting myself to a normal life, as to what is "normal" i do not know. stabilization is what im looking for in my life, a part time job, pain under control, finish my degree at school, pay off school so i can finsih my degree in biotechnology then onto graphic design so i can design video games.