Wednesday, May 30, 2012
hollowfarm
  • hollowfarm
  • Location: Knoxville, TN, United States
  • Gender: Male
  • Birthday: July 26
  • Bio: Happily married;2 disabled children;nice home;optimistic outlook!
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HEALTH INTERESTS:

ADD,  ADHD,  Men's Health,  Blood Pressure,  Cholestoral,  ED,  Anxiety,  Depression,  Ashma,  Fitness,  Healthy Diet

DRUGS I AM TAKING:

adderall,  xanax,  minocycline,  celexa,  protonix,  bensapril,  lovastatin

ABOUT ME:

How do I cope & are there other resources to explore try Currently, I struggle every day with my ADD. I try to be positive, optimistic, and smile, but I feel s/w depressed. It has affected my job, family, friends, and everything. I really try and hide it from everyone, especially my children. My two sons and I all suffer from depression, anxiety, and more. I have a 15 year old son who just started high school and it's like watching myself grow up again. I know what he's going through and I can feel his pain. We often talk about our depression and anxiety and I give him advice on how to overcome the anxiety. I had severe panic attacks while growing up and I was often depressed. I lived on a farm and I would go for long walks and cry. I wanted to disappear! (The nice way to say it!) and I seriously thought about it at various times while in high school and in college. It surprises my how my parents seemed to never notice the real me. I don't blame them, we are who and what we are, and I fully understand we take what we have, be thankful for it, and move forward to make the best of things. My ADD is so severe, even when medicated I have a difficult time staying on task, remaing focused, planning, and more! I worked in mental health for several years and recently started a new career in marketing & sales. I am unable to stay on top of things, plan ahead, remain goal oriented and focused. I'm very good at marketing. I have came a long ways from being the extremely shy boy (voted most bashful in high school senior class) to being overly talkative, and not knowing when to cut it short while marketing. I have always had tons of thoughts going through my head at all times. Sometimes,I go into a store and stay for hours doing nothing, and suddenly realize the entire day is gone. I have seen the same psychistrist for years and I am happy with him. It just seems like my memory is slowly slipping away. My wife even comments on it from time to time. I was even tested for early alzheimer's disease about a year ago and the results were normal. That was very embarassing especially recently when I attended a network function and the guest speaker was one of the people who assisted the physician with testing me for alzheimer's disease. I knew ahead of time his name looked familiar, but it wasn't until I saw him that it all came flooding back. I need help, I want to be a better person in so many ways. I hurt inside b/c of this, and it has compromised my employment from time to time. The only good thing about having ADD is that I lose my concentration and as a result, I'm unable to continuously ponder & worry about life's stressful events like a normal person would! Also, I'm so detailted oriented, it's unreal. This came in very useful for some jobs, but normally I can see annoyance on someone's face when they ask me a question and get tired of listening to me having to go through the entire process, step by step. It's the only way I can think.

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