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Belle on Bipolar
Tuesday, July 15 2008
I am my own worest enemy, I punish myself, destroy myself and make sure that I feel as much pain and hurt as I hink that I deserve or don't derserve for the illness I have and the losses that or hardships that I have caused myself or ohers. I hate myself for being bipolar hate that I can't get control or a grip and I hate that... Read more
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Belle on Bipolar
Tuesday, July 01 2008
A year ago I was in a good place, things turned ugly so fast I couldn't even though I wanted and meant to keep healthy. Hospitalized in Jan 08 and finally was put on a mood stablizer, a low dose untill April of 2008 when I stated seeing a in home case manager. Since then there has been bumps, but I am now on MEDS REGULARLY, still to have one more... Read more
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Belle on Bipolar
Tuesday, July 01 2008
As he yells with anger he feels and states he's done everything for me. Cause he's still or was still there for me. I respond crying just cause your physically there doesn't mean you are there for me. That he hasn't and how if he would just read learn understand open up to my mental illness at least that would be a start. He... Read more
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Belle on Bipolar
Tuesday, May 20 2008
I've read a lot of sharepost of how hard it is to live with or deal with someone who is bipolar and I what everyones says to support the friends and family of bipolar loved ones. Right now I feel it's so hard to deal with my friends and family because they aren't bipolar and no matter how hard I try to explain to them they don't get it. I feel in... Read more
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Belle on Bipolar
Thursday, April 17 2008
Trapped inside of me is someone I am afraid of. Why? I am not sure. My mind is a million thoughts and each of them has a thousand more. Who I am maybe who I am afraid of and the someone inside is the real me. I cannot remember and have long lost perspective and cannot keep track of anyone feeling to place it in a spot that is comfortable long... Read more
