Friday, June 01, 2012

Wondering's Posts

Momentum

Well, I think I have a grasp on this feeling of needing to better myself. I have had a rush of emotions over the past few days. I have missed my old life and kind of got lost in that feeling. But now I am moving forward. Yes, my old life was grand. I was in the Air Force and had an amazing time and met so many people. But, that chapter has come to... Read moreChevron

Was I expecting too much?

Well I went out last night to a really fun place on the River Walk. I went with a bunch of Air Force people and my best friend. It was like a slap in the face. I realized last night that I am not over my Air Force past. I miss the friendships that I had and I miss those times where I got to be wild and crazy. Above all I miss the time when I... Read moreChevron

Well maybe tomorrow!!!

Yesterday I went to my appointment with my psychiatrist. It was terrible. She told me that I am setting my hopes to high and need to be more realistic. She said that I should just stick to the womens group that I go to instead of going to the PTSD group that I really want to go to. She said I wasn't ready for it. When I asked for one on one... Read moreChevron

New Begining

So today was the first day of my new begining. I talked to my best friend about some of the issues that I need to deal with. I told her that I am going to meet with the head of psychiatry at the VA tomorrow. I am hoping that I will get approved for one on one therapy. If I do get approved then I am going to develop a game plan for the issues I... Read moreChevron

Making Changes

I have been thinking a lot about my life over the past two weeks. I have decided to make changes, kind of like cleaning house. I want to move on from my illness and start a new life. Am I crazy for wanting this? The doctors told me I will always be sick. I will be in and out of the hospital for the rest of my life. Am I aiming to high to expect... Read moreChevron