G'morning RA Family
I look forward every year to a special party out in the country on 4th July - a place where I'm completely accepted for who I am no questions asked - an event where I see some people only there - something I really look forward to. It's like being accepted by "hill people", being considered part of the family. And it will happen today. BUT - RA ruins things again. I realized Monday I'm too sick just now to go anywhere there are not regular bathrooms; my meds have caused months of daily diarrhea, very unpredictable & messy. Both doctors know and tell me to expect it for at least another month. Now that's 2 things, outtings, that I've really really planned and looked forward to this year that at the 11th hour realized I can't go cause I'm too sick.
My heart is breaking - - I'm too sad just now to be angry even. I haven't learned yet how to balance the emotions that go along with living with RA.