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Monday morning...

By Jene Monday, June 01, 2009

So it's Monday morning and I'm home, not at work...because I'm once again unemployed.  Something that happens once every few years and disrupts any attempts at getting ahead that we're working on...

This time a temp position that ended rather abruptly...notice would've been nice? I will find another job, I know this.  And I'm telling myself that it will happen soon and that I'm not going to let it stress me...because RA is like a big flippin mood ring that's taken over. 

Funny thing the first places RA reared it's ugly head were family weekend trips to our hometown a few hours away....we often go for birthdays or holidays and it seemed like everytime we went my shoulder would go crazy. The only relief came from a very hot shower/bath.

Now I know the pain is RA and that stress is a huge trigger for me....

Today as I'm "unemployed" again...my whole body is stiff and some joints are sore...not dibilitating...just enough to slow me down. 

I know there are tons of things I need to do but here I am on the pc debating my next move....feeling like I could just go back to bed.

So I guess I'm just sharing thoughts....and wondering how to disconnect the feelings I don't even admit to myself...from the RA that seems to know them anyway and reacts accordingly???

just venting....
6/ 2/09 8:04am

Stress can cause flare ups. Try to do something calming (like not thinking about your job) I know that's hard, especially right now, but it really does help, even if just a little!

Lene Andersen, Health Guide
6/ 4/09 12:35pm

The best thing I can suggest to you is to not disconnect from those feelings. As you said, the RA will ferret them out anyway and if you disconnect from them, things often get worse. It took me a long time to learn that emotional honesty is much healthier for me, not just emotionally and psychologically, but physically, as well. Facing those feelings can be scary, but once I started doing that on a regular basis, I realized that running away from them made them scarier and often made me hurt more.  Turns out that if you look at them right away, they're not that frightening. Okay, so some aren't pleasant, but being aware of them usually means that you can deal with them.

 

I hope you find a job soon!

Anonymous
Tammy
6/17/09 11:25pm

I remember being that way. I try to keep moving. I workout and swim. I take a lot of meds for my RA, but you have think, better now than later. Enjoy your body regardless. You have no time to be depressed. It hurts, try to take time out to strech every second you can get. You will loose it if you don't use it. Remember.

By Jene— Last Modified: 12/10/10, First Published: 06/01/09