I am the other side of the disease.  The other side of the coin that cannot be ignored.

RA has taken away my independence, my pride and self worth.  I am no longer who I once was, RA took that just because.  You have prevented me to get the job that I wanted and took away the job that I once had.

RA limits the things that I can do, and dictates how I can do it. No longer that active mom, that I once was, you took that , you went right to it. 

RA increased my bills, and damaged my credit. Those 3 month visits, all those pills and that shot.  RA when do you stop, just give it up,  you have already taken alot.

  RA makes me put on a smile when really I want to cry. It is the shadow that makes you have to lie.   

You make me fake that the life I live now is great, when the life before WAS wonderful.

RA has put me in a box, a box so dark lonley.  Its not enough that you tear apart my bones, my body, but you are taking my marriage too!

Look on the positive side, they say, but just let me dwell in my sorrow for this day.

I dont want to pretend, I want to say how I feel....

I live, breath and feel this beast, so just for today, please let me say

                          I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU RA!!