Hello everyone. I have been off line for a while and have now decided to crawl out of my hole and back into the land of the living.
I have been struggling with a lot of health issues, as I am sure everyone else does too. But...it seams that mine seam to all wait to hit me until their are at least (3) of them. Murphy's Law is a Killer!!!
I just had carpal tunnel release surgery done on both hands on 3-11-11. I originally thought that doing both hands at the same time was a good idea, as this would minimize the time I had to be off my Enbrel. Hind sight: Not a good idea! The temp. stop of my Enbrel two weeks prior to the surgery sent me into a RA Flare, which I did anticipated. But the lack of use of both of my hands and the post anesthesia stuff...Holy Cow! What was I thinking?
I am sure glad that week is over. I started my Enbrel again, right after the surgery. It is still not working its magic yet and I don't do prescription pain killers. They make me sick to my stomach.
Another poor decision that I made was to do an Upper Endoscopy on 3-15-11, while I was off work for the carpal tunnel surgeries. Hey, might as well go for the gusto, huh. NOTE: I now know I was completly out of my freaken mind!!! I must have thought that I was really tough. What I have found is that I have crumbled like a wet cardboard box. I am just now pulling myself up from the depths.
The endoscopy identified some more medical issues that I now have to address and some more medications that I will need to take. NOTE: It is beginning to bother me when I go to my pharmacy each month and walk away with a HUGE sack of med.'s!
I go in for my endoscopy follow up and biopsy results on 3-19-11 and to my hand surgeon on 3-17-11 to have the stitches taken out and see how my hands are doing.
I know that we learn from our mistakes and this has been an extremely painful lesson for me to learn both physically and mentally. I know now that I must stop being my worst enemy and begin being a friend to my body and my mind. I am not invinsible. I do not have to be tough. I do not have anything to prove.
NOTE to ALL: Be kind and gentle to yourselves.
Published On: March 12, 2011