emotional health

RA, Carpal Tunnel Release Surgery, Sleep Apnea, Acid Reflux and the Mental Screw.

Rena Community Member March 12, 2011
  •      Hello everyone.  I have been off line for a while and have now decided to crawl out of my hole and back into the land of the living.

         I have been struggling with a lot of health issues, as I am sure everyone else does too.   But...it seams that mine seam to all wait to hit me until their are at least (3) of them.  Murphy's Law is a Killer!!!

         I just had carpal tunnel release surgery done on both hands on 3-11-11.  I originally thought that doing both hands at the same time was a good idea, as this would minimize the time I had to be off my Enbrel.  Hind sight:  Not a good idea!  The temp. stop of my Enbrel two weeks prior to the surgery sent me into a RA Flare, which I did anticipated.  But the lack of use of both of my hands and the post anesthesia stuff...Holy Cow!  What was I thinking?

         I am sure glad that week is over.  I started my Enbrel again, right after the surgery.  It is still not working its magic yet and I don't do prescription pain killers.  They make me sick to my stomach.

         Another poor decision that I made was to do an Upper Endoscopy on 3-15-11, while I was off work for the carpal tunnel surgeries.  Hey, might as well go for the gusto, huh.  NOTE:  I now know I was completly out of my freaken mind!!!  I must have thought that I was really tough.  What I have found is that I have crumbled like a wet cardboard box.  I am just now pulling myself up from the depths.

         The endoscopy identified some more medical issues that I now have to address and some more medications that I will need to take.  NOTE:  It is beginning to bother me when I go to my pharmacy each month and walk away with a HUGE sack of med.'s! 

         I go in for my endoscopy follow up and biopsy results on 3-19-11 and to my hand surgeon on 3-17-11 to have the stitches taken out and see how my hands are doing.

         I know that we learn from our mistakes and this has been an extremely painful lesson for me to learn both physically and mentally.  I know now that I must stop being my worst enemy and begin being a friend to my body and my mind.  I am not invinsible.  I do not have to be tough.  I do not have anything to prove.

         NOTE to ALL:  Be kind and gentle to yourselves.

3 Comments
  • V
    V
    Health Guide
    Mar. 14, 2011

    Hi, Rena,

     

    Oh, my. You have been through it.  Thank you for your post.  It is an excellent reminder to everyone who reads it. I certainly hope things settle down for you soon, and you get some rest and many, many good days.  Smile

     

    Peace,

    V

    • Rena
      Mar. 14, 2011

           Hi V!  I am beginning to climb out of the "hurt locker" now...thank goodness!  It makes me feel better to hear that my post could help other people.  We can all use a little help from our friends and your reply makes me feel better.  Thank YOU!