So it's Saturday night and I had decided to go hang out with my sister and best friend. We decided to go bowling. I wondered if I would be able to do it. I wanted to try it. I have pain in my wrists so I knew it was going to be a challenge. Two frames went by and I gave up. I decided the pain it was causing wasn't worth it. It really bummed me out that I couldn't participate. I even went and found the lightest ball. I just sat there and watched. I just think back to all the things I used to do that I didn't have to think twice about. I just want more than anything to be "normal" and do the things I've always enjoyed. It's so darn frustrating!! I'm just having a hard time adjusting to this change in lifestyle. Any suggestions to help with this transition??
I just want to let you know that you aren't the only one! I used to be on the swim team, dance team, and tennis team! My life was great although I always felt I was in pain more that I should be and wore occasional braces on my knee or wrist when needed until college when I just couldn't do it anymore! I thought I was going crazy and shuffled around fm dr to dr until I finally found out I had RA. It effects all joints that I have injured in sports or car wrecks and more. It drives me crazy! I understand what you mean in trying to have a "normal" life, it's very complicated at times especially when people don't understand. What I suggest to you is to make things easier around you for you and try not to worry about what other people think because thats what was the worst part of it for me. For instance, when going bowling I wear a wrist brace that allows me to bowl longer. I still sometimes when around "new" friends will wear a long sleve shirt to cover it up though. Themeparks are a fun one- I can't walk around day and climb the stairs like I used to. So when I need to sit, I sit at every chance I get if needed. What I'm working on right now is diet and exercise. I have switched around so many different medications, I don't know what works or doesn't. I'm looking more into natural therapy although I'm not saying it's best for everyone, but something to take a glance at! Good luck to you and always remember to keep your head up!