Dealing with life..

Thank you for welcoming me! I do get very lonely at times..And the pain is unbearable..It really does help to talk to you all..Im reading so many post that wow Im in awe now!  Im relating so much to you guys and It feels nice to know that really, were going to make it!! 

Thanks again

Michelle

Thanks for the comment!  It really is a verbal hug let me tell ya! 

My kids are 14,12,10,9,7..But I wouldn't change it for the world..It is alot on me! but Im glad I found this site..It really has helped me these past days!

THank  you for the welcome...and for taking the time and commenting my post!

Michelle

Dear Michelle,

    I'm sorry for your pain!!  I too have RA and fibromyalgia.  It's no fun at all.  I have three daughters 30,23,13.  I was married for 27 years,divorced for 4 and now making plans to remarry my ex. I love him dearly, but have a desperate need for the insurance he can provide me.  I've had none and can't take the proper drugs because of the high costs!!  I have a strong faith and just know that someday there will be a cure for us, or at the very least, drugs available that won't due more harm than good.  God Bless you, and know that you're in my prayers. 

Wow your marrying your ex..I Know what you mean about the insurance! I wish you well..And I hope and pray that there will be a cure..Because I dont know how much more of this Anyone can take ..Its so painful!! I wish you well ..Congratulations!! And you to will be in my prayers..

Thank you

Michelle :)

Thank you!

I really appreciate the well wishes! I hope the same to you! God bless ya!

Just like to let you know that we wish you well.

Expectly with the kids,and christmas around the knore.

I don't know how you do it . I have RA & OA and that painful .

 God  Bless you .

Thank you so much! Gosh I hear that OA is painful..let alone having RA. I to wish you well..And I hope your Thanksgiving & Christmas are fulfilling for you! I really dont know how I do either!! THe Grace of God! let me tell ya! 

God Bless u to!!

I understand what your saying! I guess its me, my own emotions that take over you know! I feel like im not worthy sometimes..Ive even told my husband to leave me and himself a whole woman! I know it sounds crazy..But really thats the way I feel..We do everything together also! HE helps me out so much especially with the kids! BUt I cant help feeling that Im cheating him out of alot!

I to feel like im going to die..sometimes..I tell my husband that..I love him so much ..I really dont know what I would do with out him..We have been married since we were 16yrs old.. We got married in Vegas..And have been together ever since..I just dont want him to be with me..because he feels bad for me!!  Im learning how to cope with this!! I have had alot of anger!  At myself but now Im learning..THanks for the Advice..I just imagined life so diffrent..WHo doesnt, Right? 

 WIsh you well..Hope your feeling better!!

Michelle

i felt the same way you do. i told my husband to leave me when i was at my worse. he told me that he loved me no matter what , though the good and the bad. he also said if it was him that was sick would i leave him? of course i said no.now he has two vertabras deterated in his back and can't work. but we will stick together though this also. you never know whats around the corner in your life.you just have to take what comes.when life gives you lemons make lemonade.

Wow! I have told my wife the same thing. I know she hates to hear it and thinks I'm being dramatic, but at times I really mean it. I can't help but wish that she didn't have to deal with me. She is so good to me even though I'm practically useless to her and the insurance she has is the only thing that keeps me going. I know that's the wrong attitude to have, but we are human and with such an uncaring disease... sometimes we will be down on ourselves.

The important thing is to get back up and keep going. Enjoy any and every good moment and try to think of those during the bad.

Yea its pretty hard, To have my husband work 100 hrs a week..than he comes home and helps me out..I feel useless at times!! But thank god  he has stood by my side!! I have one of the Great ones!! I dont know to many 33yr old men!! THat would do this..

THanks for the comment..

Its crazy because...We all feel the same!! We Will make it..and You do deserve her..We just have to be as good to them!!

I hope your feeling better today!!

HAppy THanksgiving...

Hi Kellie:  I really do appreciate the comment!  I am doing better, especially since coming on to this site and chatting with you all! It really has helped me!

Yea having all three of these diseases do  debilatate me somewhat! I have noone to thelp me .besides my kids and husband of course!! and I pray and read my bible everyday! Only God knows how I go on with life..Because really I have no strength left!  I cant believe how many people are feeling just like me..Im really not alone! I thought I was going crazy for a moment! BUt Im realizing its all part of this illness!  I wish I had my family to help..But they have there own lives I guess!!  My parents are off on a cruise right now! Well deserved..But sometimes I need them to!! My sisters live near me..They wont come to visit! Its hard..It really is..My parents can be down the street from me and they wont come over or call!  I have really found out so much about everybody..Now!! I never thought Family would be like THis!!  ..

Enough with my sad story..I need to get over it ..I think!!

I hope your doing well today...Everyday is a struggle but We will make it!!

THanks for listening..and yes I would like your email..So  we can continue talking!

I appreciate it!

Mic helle

Good Evening Michelle! I hope you had a decent day. Mine was okay, just a little rough because the high for today was only 32 degress~~BURRR! As you know the cold can make the pain even more unbearable.  I have a 2nd part of RA called Ankylosing Spondylitis, which is where the bones start fusing together.  It's mainly in my lower back where I have microfractures but some days it goes all the way up my spine & around to my chest, so for me the cold is not my friend. Anyway, how are you feeling today? Do you have a jacuzzi or whirlpool tub? We use to have one in our old house & it was great & as soon as we get our new home complete I plan on having another. They can be pricey but you can find discontinued models & it's so worth the investment.  Enough of that, something funny happened today w/ our 3yr old son that I will share w/ you to make you laugh~~I was in the kitchen doing dishes & I heard our daughter belly laughing. So I came out of the kitchen & saw her standing at the bottom of the stairs looking up. I went to the stairs & looked up & saw our son standing on the stair landing w/ only his crocs on & his ball cap dancing~~can't leave that boy alone for 5 secs.  Now I'll let you get some rest & you can email me when you feel up to it~~jkcog1097@yahoo.com

THanks for the welcome!! I  do feel like I'd made such a great decision...I have had so low points and everyone here is so incouraging!! Im really happy to have found a website where I can share my moments and everyone knows exactly what I feel!! Im the first and only one In my family diagnosed with this..So I really cant talk to anyone else here who can relate to me!!

THanks again..

WIsh you well..

Michelle