Does anyone, Ever feel Guilty about this Disease!! Like your Cheating the ones you love!!

Hi AGain..To all

Im here sharing some more of my life..If thats okay!!

HAs anyone ever felt guilty that you were cheating out the ones you love of having a life!! I feel like that so many times..My kids ..Age from 14,12,10,9,7 and sometimes I feel like they get so mad at me!! They try ..I know they do!! THey do help..But really how much can they take!! I have two of my kids that are showing some symptoms of JRA..and it really scares me...My 12,10..are showing some signs..I have one home today because hes in so much pain that he cant bare it!! I feel so bad..And I feel guilty that he might have it because of me!! Where not for sure yet ..waiting on results!! BUt they way they hurt..It mimics me!! I wonder sometimes how life would be with out all this..ANd to tell you the truth I cant even..THink of not having it..I dont remember what it feels like!!  I want to be a great mom..and wife..But this disease limits me so much! THeres days that I cant even get out of bed!! My husband is so great ..he helps me out so much!!..

well This is my thought for today!! THanks for hearing me out!!

Michelle